Thanksgiving Due Date

[unansweredprayers]

Today is Thanksgiving. My favorite holiday of the whole year...usually. But today should have been my baby's due date.. her birthday... This thanksgiving was more like going through the motions. I was in a crowd of people yet feeling more alone than ever. People thinking I'm just in a bad mood..no one knew how badly I'm hurting inside. I don't know how to be happy right now, only how to fake it. I don't know what to be thankful for right now, other than the fact that I'm alive, though sometimes I wish I weren't... I should be gazing into my child's eyes, not crying mine out until they burn, and then some more.


I guess I was just wondering if anyone has any encouraging words to get me through this holiday season... Sometimes I feel like it's not even worth it. I don't have my baby, and I feel like everything I do and how I feel always revolves around that fact nowadays.

 

[Forge3]

I want to understand what happened with your child. Is it still alive or did you lose it?

 

[unansweredprayers]

No, I had a miscarriage. I was only around 2 months along at the time but I have felt it was a girl and since refer to the baby as "she" and "her".

 

[jackndbox]

Dear unanswered. My heart breaks for you. I dont know why things happen, I dont know why we face some of the things we do, but I do know that Gods is always in control. If it means anything for you at all, please know you are in my prayers.