- Dec 8, 2004
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Is it just me who feels that as you try and get better, things seem to get worse, and you end up screwing up and feeling worse?
Therapy's been pretty rubbish for me, so i got outta the one i was in, and have continued with the group therapy i was also in. that's going so well, and we had a really good session on friday, and got really good progress. Yet today, one little thing sets me off and I'm stuck in this viscious cycle of tearing myself down, feeling i'm to blame for every damn thing that's gone wrong in this world. And I ended up cutting. And then i'm sat, beating myself up more, for failing at not cutting. I was doing so well lately, and now i've screwed up twice in a few days.
Sometimes it feels like it's easier just to choke down all the issues and pretend their not there. At least then i dont feel like such a darn failure.
Therapy's been pretty rubbish for me, so i got outta the one i was in, and have continued with the group therapy i was also in. that's going so well, and we had a really good session on friday, and got really good progress. Yet today, one little thing sets me off and I'm stuck in this viscious cycle of tearing myself down, feeling i'm to blame for every damn thing that's gone wrong in this world. And I ended up cutting. And then i'm sat, beating myself up more, for failing at not cutting. I was doing so well lately, and now i've screwed up twice in a few days.
Sometimes it feels like it's easier just to choke down all the issues and pretend their not there. At least then i dont feel like such a darn failure.
