Support thread for ED/SI/etc ... come on in! *poss. trig* (5)

Hope that the new meds start to work soon, i can relate to those strong feelings and fighting them is hard, its ver hard and tiring so sending lots of hugs and positive thoughts your way xxxx

Hey guys, sorry not been able to get in (technically not ment to be on internet but hey never mind)

April Im sorry to hear things arent going too well for you, i gope that the new meds have started to kick in and are having some effect and things are a bit better for you now. Ive been on Desipramine but my body reacted to it so wasnt on it for long at all and i refused to take Abilify (because of the weight gain) It is supposed to be a fab drug but yeah i can completly understand the feeling of being scared about the side effects, (and im being majorly hypocritical here sorry) but if its is going to help in the long run maybe it is a good thing to take. hows the hypomanianess going? hass it calmed down a little? i know its hard when theres no in between stuff from being suicidal to being manic/hypomanic its triing and very very draining so i do hope your getting a bit of peace x

Have you managed to reschedule your app with your N? and sorry to hear you were in another car accident i hope you were/are ok. If you think your slipping i think it would be good to get an app for that support and to stop you slipping any further hun.
How did the papaer go, sounds like a very tough paper to me and lots of research needed for it? ? did Jarrod manage to help you in time to get it finished? sound like uni is going a little better (or is that just me being optimistic??)

And dont apologise for venting at all.

Sarah how are the new meds doing hun? hope your ok. cant text at min as theyve got my phone but as soon as get it back i will text.

Becs, Ladybug anyone else how you all doing thinking of you all

Me.............erm well. yeah im at unit its really really weird, last specific Ed unit i was on was adolescent and up to 19 this is adult and scary (and yeah actually really triggering) they had to put me on the older adolescent ward for a couple of day because there wasnt a bed. but was on strict bedrest anyway so couldnt do anything anyway. but then they moved me to here and i dont know how im liking/not liking it to be honest. I know i dont feel good though, in fact ive been a mess, staff have been good though theyve been in contact with the ward im normally on trying to find out as much as possible about me from staff rather that just my notes, which is good in a way but not so good at the same time. it was mainly to fin out how they managed me when i was suicidal and psychotic i think. ive been very suicidal since getting here (although was there before too) and being scared seems to be making it worse. although i have till monday to try and eat something or theyre putting a NG tube in

I'm just so tired of all this fighting and hurting. i hate it all so much. sorry going into maoning mood so will shush, plus staff are coming round so should really come of and just sit playing games. will get back on as soon as can.xx

take care xx

Heya everyone just manged to get on here to do a quick update *(will be quick though) been thinking of you all and hoping your all doing ok.

I was supposed to be allowed home this week but yeah theyre not letting me go as ive not gained enough. i hate it i keep telling them i want to go home, that being here is just making me feel worse ive had a rough few days and has drained me a bit. I have tried, i really have but its so hard to keep up what they want me to do

Hey ladybug its good to see you, sorry things havent been great but dont feel bad about writing it here, if it helps you get it out go ahead hun.

Bed how you, hope your doing ok after fifnishing uni.

April, sarah how you all xx

will try and get bk in as soon as i can xx

April how you doing

I'm trying to hang on but its so hard
:'( and tiring too its realy draining. i thought i might get soemthing from being here but im really not feeling any better at all

Dinonum i'm so sorry that you went through that hun. i dont know the words to say that will make the pain any easier but please know that im thinking of you xxxx

Thinking of everyone, just wanted to come on and say hello. hope your all doing ok, been thinking of everyone loads.

hope you all managed the past week in the best way possible for you, if you enjoy this ime of year hope it was a great time for you if not then i hope you took care of yourselves xxxxxxx


Sorry not updated recently things not been fab, thought was doing ok but yeah im not :'(. so much for me only staying here for three weeks yeah not happened has it!! and now they want me to stay a minimum of another three weeks but could possibly be longer i just want to leave. SI urges have been so constant and strong ive been struggling with really negative thoughts and its draining me, then ED side of things well yeah that not going too well. its like i try work on onething and the rest just gets worse i cant win wichever way i try it. i put weight on then freaked out and ended up loosing most of it, its triggering me so much being here and ive tried to explain it but it never seems to come out right! EURGH :'(

sorry will shush now, hope eveyrones as well as can be xxxx