Support thread for ED/SI/etc ... come on in! *poss. trig* (4)

[Arianna]

Hi
everyone
April - It was very brave of you to tell them ...and I think honesty is probably the best policy..but i'm sorry you have to deal with them being so intrusive.. I guess they ask because they're scared :-( but it's horrible.

How are you Kerin, Sabrina, Bec, Allie?

Things aren't going great ..i'm so exhausted and worried about everything. I should be working but can't really concentrate.

 

[the_box_of_giggles]

It's Allie. But I forgive you. Half my teachers can't spell it right. I'm good you?

 

[Arianna]

sorry :-( having people too useless to spell your name right is so annoying

 

[katey]

Anyone know n e good places i can dissapear from life for a few days??????????????????

things are a bit( ok a lot more than just a bit ) pants right now. everythings going wrong. and the only reason i'm not surrently sat in a hospital bed is because there arent n e!! everywhere seems full at the minute. so my home vivist are now at three times a day with a phone call at night time to!!!!! think if they could stay with me all day long they would!!! i hate it, how do they expect me to do things, keep busy meet up with my mates wen i'm wiaitng for them all the time, ringing them telling them how i am. i've got to the point i'm telling them i'm fine am safe just # get them # leave me alone!!! and i hate it so much


hows everyone else doing????

 

[the_box_of_giggles]

I have a couch?

 

[the_box_of_giggles]

And Ari. You totally aren't worthless.

 

[katey]

thankyou Allie xxx

 

[the_box_of_giggles]

No problem. Man in every other forum but this one poeple p!ss me off with stupidness.

 

[beckybooiloveu]

*HUGS* everyone... im praying for you all!
im... not any better but meh... im exhausted from very little sleep and having sooooo much to do... and i just did my rowing trial and feinted after... so my sleep is going to halve again now because i am coaching and rowing in a team... so im going to be flat out!!! ahhhh...

anyways... better get to the study

 

[MyaShane]

Ari! I hope things start to slow down for you. Can they get anyone in to help you? Doesn't make sense to have you so overloaded and stressed.

Katey - If they need to visit you so much and call you so much, sounds like you need to be admitted somewhere. I hope for your sake that someone has some availability for you soon so you get the care you need!

Aw Bec, fainting is never good. Please take better care; eat when you can and get some extra rest. You're just not going to be able to keep this up.

I feel like a blob this morning - I hate that!

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

I feel overwhelmed Ari.....fat, miserable and like a failure since I choose to eat today...I KNOW I should eat...but I feel like it is starting to get to be too much everyday...I tell myself that I need to be thinner than I am now...that five more # and Ill be happy....just five more # and I will stop obsessing, but it wont be true. I wish I could stop this mania in my head, but it wont go away......it wont!!! Its so loud......I dont know what I am gonna do, Im so tired of this eating disorder.....I want help.....but I dont know how I will get it being the way I am....I just dont feel sick yet....
Hows everyone else?, I send my prayers to you all....

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

*hugs* I know the blob feeling, it doesnt go away easy, even when I exercise its still there.....under my chin, my thighs, my stomach, my arms.....I feel the flab.....I see it, it haunts me....

 

[katey]

hey, thanks Kerin, yeah i had a good think about it today and i agreed (after much much persuasion) that it may just be the right or rather safest place for me to be right now. but typically the one time i'm agreeing to go in theres no beds anywhere in this area the other option, if theres still no beds by tomorrow afternoon at the psych units, is the private hospital not far from here they will admit me until a bed becomes available. they were going to admit me onto the ED unit however they said right now the priority is my low mood and thoughts that i'm having once theyve settled them down (hopefully ne way) then theyl transer me to the ED hospital.

i'm still really really unsure about it all but i saw a good freind today and she was really really upset. she sat and creied and told me how scared her and a few other friends are. they can see what i'm doing to myself but cant help me and its really hurting them. i felt soo bad.

i need to get help, ok yeah right now its not for me its for them. but if i try then i might want it, right?????

please it is the right thing todo isnt it? but why dont i want it for me? i'm once again doing it to please soemone else because as per usual i'm hurting them.

i hate all this stuff so much

 

[MyaShane]

Katey, doing this for other people is a noble idea and it may get you started in the healing process, but when it comes right down to it, it has to be for you. I'll be praying that some place has an opening for you real soon; and it's great that you're able to see that you need this help!

 

[the_box_of_giggles]

I feel so huge this week. ugh.

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

Same here box of giggles

 

[the_box_of_giggles]

I feel so freaking huge. On monday I ate unhealthily and it just started this icky fat feeling.

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

I know what you mean, like one teaspoon of ice cream and this creepy crawling feeling on my body starts...its like I just gained ten # from it it feels like...

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

I just wrote a new blog....

 

[MyaShane]

I just wrote a new blog....

- I'm going to check it out when I have some time today!