Support thread for ED/SI/etc ... come on in! *poss. trig* (4)

[LovesEnduringPromise]

Kerin a B is still good, it is what it is...dont let it get you down. But I know the perfection strike in us...its aggrivating when everything doesnt get up to our standards...but our standards for how things should be will never measure up b/c we arent perfect...and arent supposed to be

Im okay....tired...actually been eating...the struggles come and go...

 

[Soulwings]

Kerin I know how devastating getting a B can be - especially if it's the first one you've gotten. I've gotten one before, and it was horrible, but it was in precalc and that is reasonable seeing as I suck at math. But yeah, Sabrina's right. Our quest for perfection isn't the most sensible thing ever. Not to say that I don't completely understand the drive for perfection, though!!

Sabrina. Yey for you eating some, and persevering through struggles. That's superb.

Katey. I hope that things are going better for you now... sounds like it's been quite rough lately. Thanks for your words; they did help, and I hope that mine help too, even though I have little to say at the moment.


Things with me are okay, I guess. Well, okay, no they are not. I'm an emotional mess right now since whenever I introspect to see how I am feeling, I get confused because I can't figure it out. My counselor can't help me either, since I can't really describe how I'm feeling (if I really am feeling...). Things are still going badly, I cut a few times last week... but eating is going okay. And somehow I'm managing A's in all of my classes (I think); I say "somehow" because I have no idea how I'm managing it. I don't feel as though I am doing any work, yet I am getting it all done. It's so confusing!!!!

Hope you all are doing well tonight.
/me mahoosively hugs everyone.

 

[dinonum]

I binged, pretty badly, I feel like going into the restroom and just getting rid of it all. I'm pretty much bawling my eyes out trying not too..........I don't know if I will yet, but I just really want to, even though part of me doesn't....

 

[beckybooiloveu]

hey all... im ummm... really not doing to well... my mum has challenged me to race her to lose weight... before this i was really feeling low and depressed but now its worse... i have been majorly restricting and have started purging again... i have been feeling really sick lately with really bad migraines... and sharp pains in my stomach... im not completely sure but... i think there was blood when i purged tonight which kinda scares me...

ive also been thinking alot about SI alot lately... i ahve deliberately burnt myself under the hot water urn and few times lately (and used the excuse of being intoxicated)... i have also found myself staring at my scars alot...

so... yeh... im really not feeling too good and would really appreciate some prayers...
thanks...

 

[the_box_of_giggles]

ugh. I'm in a bad mood, but not ED related things. Just here to give some hugs. and they are super amazing allie hugs too.
*hugglefies*

 

[Soulwings]

sblood. I hope that you managed to get through yesterday okay... I don't know what else to say except that I'm here for you if you need to talk. Hang in there.

Bec. That isn't wise of your mum... doesn't she know some about your ED? or have you managed to keep it completely hidden from her? Please, please don't take the challenge. You don't need to lose weight, especially not the unhealthy way. Take care of yourself, beautiful. Please try, at least.

 

[katey]

(((((((bec)))))))) i agree with April about your mum n this challenege please dont its not going to do your anygood hun.


hope everyones ok, 'm still not doing great but have got the crisis team coming out twice a day at the minute i'm trying soo hard to stay out of hospital and theyr trying to help me but i've been warned that i could end up back in there this week if things dont improve or get worse. its a mess as usual

 

[beckybooiloveu]

no she doesnt know anything about the ED... i dont live at home very often because my uni is away from home...
but she is right... i really do ahve to lose weight...

 

[the_box_of_giggles]

*hugs*. Love you girls to bits.

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

*hugs* Sblood and becky!!! Stay strong in the fight!!You can do it and you can make it through, dont let the urges take you over, dont let them master your lives. Your much stronger than any voice in your head, just tell yourselves your better than your disorder, your better than those thoughts. Your fighting for your life and for the Lord.

 

[MyaShane]

Hang in there April. It sounds like more than anything it's loads of pressure that's getting to you. Any way to reduce that at all (pot calling the kettle black here! )?

I'm glad you're continuing to check in Bec. Sounds like you're in a rough place right now and you need to be taking care of you. I'm not sure what this contest is about with your mom, hun, but it sounds like an unwise idea to me. If you do think you need to lose a bit of weight, please consider doing it safely and not as a race, I just can't see the benefits to that at all.

Hope you have a better day Katey!

It's good to see you again Allie. How have you been?

Ari, Sabrina - how are you both?


I have two exams, two huge homework sections (for Statistics ) and if that's not quite enough, a final, and all for just this week alone! Did I say this was supposed to be my easy semester? I'm SSSSOOOO stressed right now!

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

Hi Kerin, this morning I ate breakfast without a problem...now that its over Im feeling a bit fat.....kinda crawling out of my skin...

how are you? ED wise?

 

[MyaShane]

how are you? ED wise?

I was thinking today how nice it would be to have a day off from it actually. Just a day of not thinking of every bite, of every calorie, of everything.

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

Ha, Id love that too Kerin...

 

[Soulwings]

Kerin. I hope that you can have a somewhat unstressful time during spring break - you do have spring break, right??

I told my parents about my cutting last night... and it was the same drama all over again. My mum demanded to see my cuts (stomach & shoulder) so I had to show her, otherwise she would get po'd at me and insinuate that I was being a self absorbed teenager & that I was cutting to spite them. So I showed her them, in front of my dad as well, and now I am po'd about that, and Jarrod was shocked to hear about it. He knew that they were intrusive when they found out about certain aspects of my life, but I guess he didn't realise just how intrusive until he came to live here and met them and all? I don't know. So there is tension between him and them now, and I've got to be the mediator, somehow and in some way. I DON'T NEED ANY MORE STRESS!!!

Anyway.

Love you all. Sorry I'm rubbish for support right now, things are just completely horrible.

 

[the_box_of_giggles]

I'm good. Gigglly tonight.

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

*hugs* April, sorry to hear all that. Just please stay strong in the midst of all the stress, I know its hard to but you can! Youve done it before, you can do it again!

 

[beckybooiloveu]

hugs

 

[MyaShane]

Kerin. I hope that you can have a somewhat unstressful time during spring break - you do have spring break, right??

Yes, next week is our break. I'll be spending my time writing a paper and doing a project both for my nutrition class, but at least they're easier things to work on and it's not studying really and it's not one of my math classes!!

Sorry you have to play the mediator, that's garbage. It's so hard to try and keep the peace between everyone, it's exhausting! Financially do you have to live with your parents or is there another option?

 

[the_box_of_giggles]

April how are you today?