Support thread for ED/SI/etc ... come on in! *poss. trig* (4)

[the_box_of_giggles]

*snuggle* I hope everyones ok?

 

[BrokenForHim]

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[the_box_of_giggles]

*snuggle*n I'll pray for you

 

[the_box_of_giggles]

is it bad that I'm excited for eating disorder awarness week/ day and SI awareness day?

 

[GoGators]

is it bad that I'm excited for eating disorder awarness week/ day and SI awareness day?

I don't think so, in fact I think its a good thing. People need to be aware of it so they can help those who struggle with it. How are you doing btw??

 

[the_box_of_giggles]

I"m pretty good. livelifelove06.blogpsot.com

Thats my blog link in case any of you want to know what I'm up to and i'm a little vacant around these parts. I update pretty regularly.

 

[katey]

hey howz everyone doing? havent popped in fro afew days ben a bit down. have had a few issues going on but i'm having soem relaxing time (which doesnt seem to actually b relaxing at all but hey) so thought would coem and see how everyones doing xx

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

Im alright. I feel huge! I exercised today though for ## mins(walking)...which makes it better. But my husband is on to me. He senses I am back into the habit of starving/binging/obsessive exercising again. Its so hard to hide. I didnt eat last night and he was sooooo worried. Truth is I wasnt hungry and just before he had gotten home I ate some ice cream(like ### cals in it for one little bowl) it was sooooooooo good though I couldnt resist..and I fixed him a pizza knowing I wasnt going to eat it...and I couldnt eat it or come to eating it...and get got upset. I am really trying not to get back into this mind set, but I feel I have denied it for too long that I was and its already set itself in.

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

I am also starting to feel alone and thats what has triggered it. I have my husband to talk to and hes great, but he doesnt understand it all. I feel alone b/c I dont want to talk to him about it, therefore I feel like i have to deal with this by myself.

 

[katey]

snuggles, am sorry your feeling like that. its not good i kno. but your not alone. we're al here and will help you as much as you can.sometimes partners, fmaily and friends dont understand as much as they want to. and its hard for us to see that.
am sorry not much help but lots of *sunggles* coming your way xx

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

Yes, definetly. Family is usually the least to understand because they want to deny it, they tend to get angry at you because they dont want you hurting yourself like this.
I knwo I have you guys and there are tons of people suffering from this disorder. I was just watching thr TYRA BANKS show and it was talking about eating disorders, its was very sad and made me cry...so sad that when I saw one girl on there I was jealous and wanted to look like her. It was scary though because it was talking about all the models who have died from anorexia and how sudden it can be....I dont want to die from this...but I know I COULD..we all could. But the anorexia/bulimia lies to you. Its a very sick diesease, but we believe that we will be the ones to make it.

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

I think we should all post in here more. I dont see many of you talking about your disorder much...here and there maybe...but I think we should be more detailed and encouraging..since we are all christians and do understand each other. I am going to try and come to this board much more often

 

[beckybooiloveu]

HUGE HUGS. im praying for you hun...

 

[shazabella]

hi everyone

sending some hugs

- Shaz

 

[katey]

*snuggles* to everyone, hope were all doing ok, i'm a bit stressed out as usual n worrying because i've got another packed week of appointments, thats all i seem to be doing lately, therapy, therapy counciling and more therapy. loads of appointments!!!!

 

[MyaShane]

Yes, definetly. Family is usually the least to understand because they want to deny it, they tend to get angry at you because they dont want you hurting yourself like this.
I knwo I have you guys and there are tons of people suffering from this disorder. I was just watching thr TYRA BANKS show and it was talking about eating disorders, its was very sad and made me cry...so sad that when I saw one girl on there I was jealous and wanted to look like her. It was scary though because it was talking about all the models who have died from anorexia and how sudden it can be....I dont want to die from this...but I know I COULD..we all could. But the anorexia/bulimia lies to you. Its a very sick diesease, but we believe that we will be the ones to make it.

That's all very true and just how I feel a lot of the time. Just when I think I'm doing well, I'll see someone on a movie, TV, whatever and think "That's how I want to look!" Regardless of how unhealthy that person may be or how much more unhealthy it would make me!! It's so important to understand just how deceiving this disease can be!

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

That's all very true and just how I feel a lot of the time. Just when I think I'm doing well, I'll see someone on a movie, TV, whatever and think "That's how I want to look!" Regardless of how unhealthy that person may be or how much more unhealthy it would make me!! It's so important to understand just how deceiving this disease can be!

Its so weird, but its how I feel. I am jealous of that person in a way. Its bad I know, but its so hard to contain those feelings. I want to acheive that look, I want to be that Thin! I know this diesease lies, but somehow I cannot wrap my head anywhere around those lies and seek out the truth. I seriously FEEL FAT, its like a feeling inside that wont go away. Its when everytime I sit down to eat I am worrying abouthow many calories are in this meal, how can I hide that I ate, what can I do to possibly feel thin? I hate how this diesease is so bombarding too, like when I hug someone Im afraid they might touch a fat area(love handles) and see that Im fat or it will lead them to think that. Im afraid when people grab my arms and I look down and I see that their hands dont fit all the way around it. My husband is so suspicious, he is trying to get it out of me that Im anorexic. I hate hurting him this way, I dont know what to do. He wants me to get help, but I dont want it. Im afraid if I die I will go to hell because of this, because of this diesease controlling my life. I dont know...im so confused.

 

[katey]

*snuggles* loves, sorry am not good with words today so just sendding a huge

 

[the_box_of_giggles]

* super snuggles*

 

[Soulwings]

I don't know about the whole going to hell bit, Loves, but if I were you I wouldn't dwell on either that fear or the things that come with EDs. I mean, easier said than done, granted, but I think that you can have the disease and not be sinning in it as long as you aren't lusting after bodies of people you see or purposefully harming the body that God has given you. Does that make any sense?

And hi again, everyone. I don't know how often I will be on, but Jarrod is here, hoorah! and I have limited computer time because of that and also because I've wanted to get some reading done and ALSO because classes will be starting on Monday and I've been gearing up for them. There. *whoosh of breath*

So where are you all?!