• The General Mental Health Forum is now a Read Only Forum. As we had two large areas making it difficult for many to find, we decided to combine the Mental Health & the Recovery sections of the forum into Mental Health & Recovery as a whole. Physical Health still remains as it's own area within the entire Recovery area.

    If you are having struggles, need support in a particular area that you aren't finding a specific recovery area forum, you may find the General Struggles forum a great place to post. Any any that is related to emotions, self-esteem, insomnia, anger, relationship dynamics due to mental health and recovery and other issues that don't fit better in another forum would be examples of topics that might go there.

    If you have spiritual issues related to a mental health and recovery issue, please use the Recovery Related Spiritual Advice forum. This forum is designed to be like Christian Advice, only for recovery type of issues. Recovery being like a family in many ways, allows us to support one another together. May you be blessed today and each day.

    Kristen.NewCreation and FreeinChrist

  • Starting today August 7th, 2024, in order to post in the Married Couples, Courting Couples, or Singles forums, you will not be allowed to post if you have your Marital status designated as private. Announcements will be made in the respective forums as well but please note that if yours is currently listed as Private, you will need to submit a ticket in the Support Area to have yours changed.

Support thread for ED/SI/etc ... come on in! *poss. trig* (4)

Jump to latest Follow Reply
Status
Not open for further replies.
Sort by date Sort by votes

katey

Lifes tough
Jan 20, 2006
1,462
41
37
Blackpool, England
✟24,387.00
Faith
Christian
Marital Status
Single
my RYL is katey-lou.

hope everyones ok.

i just wanna hide, i hate me so much rtight now am a mess i dnt kno why i'm doing this course its not gna happen. i'm sat in my room struggling to hold on i've been restless n really really agitate and irratable. am feeling on edge and i dont kno whhy
 
Upvote 0

Soulwings

A true original.
Apr 7, 2003
14,279
689
Northeastern USA.
✟40,389.00
Faith
Christian
Marital Status
Married
Maybe it's the weather, Katey? is it at all icky out there? bc that can have a huge effect on mood, especially if it's an already yucky mood. And why do you hate you? I'm sorry that you feel like that... know how that feels all too well...

I had a revelation today - I don't have to be one hundred percent better. I can accept myself just as I am... and it's okay for me to struggle, as long as I don't give up. It's okay for me to slip up, as long as I don't do it on purpose. It's okay for me to have bipolar mood swings, to be on medication (like my avatar? ), to have T and N and NP appointments, to have an ED as long as I don't act on the feelings.

That said, it's a fat night.
 
Upvote 0

MyaShane

CUBs fan til I die!
Feb 21, 2007
2,635
171
Illinois - home of the CUBs!
✟26,505.00
Faith
Christian
Marital Status
Married

Good for you April! Yes, that's exactly where I am and have been for years. I know now that I'll never be "better", but I can accept it and work on managing it anyway! And you're beautiful, don't get down on yourself!

Ari! What's going on?

I hope you're having a better day Katey! Dont' hate yourself hun!
 
Upvote 0

Soulwings

A true original.
Apr 7, 2003
14,279
689
Northeastern USA.
✟40,389.00
Faith
Christian
Marital Status
Married
Kerin How are you doing?? Good to see you posting, hopefully that posting bug has been fixed!

It's a fat day again. The SI and SUI stuff has decreased - thank God!! - but ED is back. Why can't things ever be easy? why do I always have to be fighting?

s to all. Hope everyone's staying safe!
 
Upvote 0

Soulwings

A true original.
Apr 7, 2003
14,279
689
Northeastern USA.
✟40,389.00
Faith
Christian
Marital Status
Married
Heh. Fat days... yeah, definitely fun.

Just keep fighting, Bec. Kerin is right - once exams are over and you can relax some and get more rest, you'll feel better. Hang in there, beautiful. (And I think that if you tried, you could cut down on something to keep your schedule from being so horrible. )

I feel like such a loser.
 
Upvote 0

Soulwings

A true original.
Apr 7, 2003
14,279
689
Northeastern USA.
✟40,389.00
Faith
Christian
Marital Status
Married
Bec, if you explain that you need some alone-time to just relax and try and enjoy life, and that you accept that you need to take care of yourself, I know that they would understand. You can't be a superhero. Even Jesus needed rest and alone-time.
 
Upvote 0

Lady Bug

Thankful For My Confirmation
Site Supporter
Aug 23, 2007
23,054
11,623
✟1,000,395.00
Country
United States
Faith
Catholic
Marital Status
Private
last night was horrible in terms of binge eating. since I have been informed that mentioning numbers here can be a bad thing I'll try not be specific in terms of numbers.

my dad was telling me last night, even though in a concerned manner, that my weight gain is such that I am starting to look pregnant. I feel absolutely terrible about that because I have only one shirt I can wear right now that covers my bulging gut from my weight gain and it is this babydoll top that I have had for a couple years now that I used to wear all the time when I was proper weight and it never looked bad at that time.

since my dad does the cooking, he made beef stew last night and he regulated the amount of mashed potatoes I could eat because he said I had to eat less and control myself. I ate the amount that even a normal person would consider a lot, and when I was done, I pretended that I was alright but even though I had a couple sizeable helpings, I felt starving to death. I felt like I wanted to throw something. When he went to bed I immediately took a couple pita bread halves from the refridgerator and toasted them. Then I was still hungry and ate a brownie. I was still "starving" so I took some ice cream. That didn't work and I had a couple cookies.

I was still "starving" but if I ate any more I knew I'd be suffering for it. I was SO "hungry" that I could not handle it. I really couldn't handle it. I had to take a sleeping pill to calm myself down and sleep because my stomach felt "empty." I never felt so badly from binge eating in my whole life.

I checked my weight this morning and it didn't change but it ALMOST gained. As if I can't be big enough. I can't bear the feeling of starving myself after eating a decent amount of food. Something is very wrong with me. And if my dad forces me to control like this, all I am going to do is sneak around binging on snacks when he is not looking because I can't adjust to the portions(you can tell my eating disorder is severe)
 
Upvote 0

Soulwings

A true original.
Apr 7, 2003
14,279
689
Northeastern USA.
✟40,389.00
Faith
Christian
Marital Status
Married
Ladybug Are you getting any help? like a therapist, nutritionist/dietician? bc I think that you are unable to stop your ED yourself... d'oh, right? but please seek help... we can support you but not fix you, and I know that you want to be free of this. I'm sorry that things are so hard for you, and I wish that the struggle would just stop and you would have a break and a breather, but things like that don't seem to happen often. How is the suicidal ideation stuff? (if I remember correctly, you were struggling with that?) Let me know if there is anything that I can do to help... am always here to listen!!
 
Upvote 0
Status
Not open for further replies.

Similar threads

What Is Your Music Doing For You? The #1 Sound Your Brain Desperately Wants to Hear
Replies
1
Views
188
One Bread, One Body - Catholic
BassLine
B
Thessalonians 4 Does Not Teach a Rapture Separate from the Second Coming
Replies
61
Views
2K
General Theology
RandyPNW
That Which is Born of the Spirit
Replies
44
Views
1K
Salvation (Soteriology)
linux.poet
Why support for same-sex marriage is declining
Replies
12
Views
2K
General Politics
stevevw
More than 50% of U.S. adults support allowing Christian prayer in public schools
Replies
1
Views
300
One Bread, One Body - Catholic
RileyG
Menu
Log in
Register