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Soulwings · May 12, 2008

Ari, how are you doing? managing to stay safe? :-S

I miss your orange font but you still have your guinea pig! Hehe. And don't go to the trouble of turning your font orange... I just do miss CF the way it "used to be" ... urgh. Can you believe that I was the 8055th member here, way back in 2003? it's grown quite a lot!

I am not doing too well tonight. Depressive episode right now. Feeling fat on top of all of it... guess you all can understand that, heh.

MyaShane · May 13, 2008

I'm still having to log off and log back on just to see my posts!

I still haven't made a character yet because it looks like they're still working on things around here.

I don't know what I'm whining about I'm just cranky I guess.

Hope you're all doing better today.

Soulwings · May 13, 2008

Kerin I am in a grumpy mood too. Doesn't help that I see my nutritionist this afternoon and I think that I've gained fat... not a happy thing... makes me feel huge.

But that's life. Heh.

Soulwings · May 14, 2008

Bummmmppp....

How are you all today?

Arianna · May 14, 2008

oh! I thought something was different! My writing has gone black ...... let me see if I can orangeyfy it.........
....ok, so it is now orange for this post ... but I forgot how I made the change the first time ... mb on my control panel...

I'm glad to still have my guinea pig April I feel my CF character is lookinga lottle pale tho ... (probably a like I do tho!)

I liked it when I could choose the CF colour... I liked having the forum green.. I'm not sure about the blue really.

How are you, April? and Kerin?
(the remaking a character was quite fun - i got to choose the position of my eyes, nose and mouth.... innovatively I placed them on my face, but I could have created a Picasso.

I'm ok ...... still struggling a lot....i spent a lot of today feeling like i couldn't breathe, i just need to.... well..cut....to calm down and feel in control....... I don't think the feeling is going to go away.

Soulwings · May 15, 2008

Aww yey orange font!! Tou really didn't need do to that, you know.

What's on your mind? I mean, what's making things so difficult? lots of work and stress? Please try and take care of yourself, just like I told Bec... bc there is a direct relationship between doing well and taking care of yourself.

I'm doing okay. Worried about my counseling (T) appointment today... worried about what I'm going to say and how I'm going to say it. Ugh. I wish... well, I don't know what I wish. I guess I just wish. :-(

MyaShane · May 15, 2008

Ari! What's going on hun?

Let us know how your appointment goes April. Will be praying for you!

I have to make a doctor's appointment for a physical for the RN program. I have been putting it off, but it needs to happen now. Why do you have to get weighed? I've been avoiding it (weighing myself) for a long time now and I really don't want to know the number. And I don't want to tell them that I don't want to know the number because...well I don't want to deal with that, you know?

Soulwings · May 15, 2008

Kerin, I hope that your doctor's appt goes well whenever you do make it. Usually can't you just close your eyes as they weigh you? bc for me, they will only tell me the number if I ask for it, although I usually see it myself before they can do that. I don't know... I hope though, that you can figure out some way to get around knowing the number. You don't need that to fret over - none of us do. Scales are evil... but it's a love-hate relationship. Can't live without them, can't live with them. Blah.

My appt went... ick. My T is worried about me still, and I don't want to say any more about that since I don't want to make myself need to hate me... so that's that. I just don't know if a belief system can be chiselled away by meds? what do you think?

s to all.

MyaShane · May 16, 2008

There's really no way to avoid hearing the number I guess. They usually just blurt it out. I just need to prepare myself and deal with it. Instead I will focus on the fact that I'm getting the physical done for the RN program that I've worked so hard to get to and now it's finally happening. Hopefully that works!

Sorry your appointment was rough April. Belief system are hard to change; if it's possible at all.

Soulwings · May 16, 2008

That is a better way to look at it. I hope that you get through it okay. Do you know yet when the appt will be?

How is everyone doing today?

katey · May 16, 2008

i just want to sit and cry am feeling horrible tonight and i dont know why. my mouths really really sore from my operation on wednesday i collected my student nurse uniform today no that i saw much point in it but hey and i had to try it on at home and [wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth] i hate myself sooo much

Soulwings · May 16, 2008

Katey I'm sorry that you're feeling so rubbish tonight and wish that I could help more. Seems like that is all I say, but... hang in there... reach out... and you shouldn't hate yourself, no reason for that. Easier said than done, yes? but think on what I said for a bit. You are lovely, worthwhile, and a special person... remember that. And I'm not the only one who thinks so - God does too. Remember that also.

katey · May 17, 2008

thankyou April, i wish i could believe it i really do but right now i'm feeling that low nothing good is going in at all. i'm trying but i've got no energy, my thoughts arent good at all, and i'm pushing everyone away *cry*

Soulwings · May 18, 2008

Katey

Why are you pushing everyone away? It's okay to need people. We all do. Humans are social beings, and God made us that way... it's okay. It doesn't mean you are weak or a burden to need people, you know.

And I am sure that you can come up with one good thing in all of the blah and bad and dark things. Like... having CF to come to. Or having friends that you can hang out with. Or having someone try and cheer you up (people do care).

Arianna · May 18, 2008

hi
Katey - i'm sorry things r so bad :-(
how r u April?

i'm really struggling :-(
and my internet is hardly working

Soulwings · May 18, 2008

Ari What's up, beautiful? Whatever is happening... just hang in there. Try to stay away from sharps... use a list of distractions... spend time with God.

I am... okay. My head is really busy and I'm a little worried about that - feels like random neurons firing and making a mess of everything - but I will be okay. Sometime. I just need to straighten things out in my life. :-(

katey · May 19, 2008

Ari, whats up hun.
April hope your head settles a bit, and isnt soo busy.

i push people away to stop them gettign hurt and so that they dont see me when i'm that low, it just one of my not so good coping skills

Soulwings · May 19, 2008

Katey Hopefully you will be able to get past that bad coping mechanism sometime... you recognize that it's bad and that's the first thing. Now just work on reaching out. There are people who care. You've just got to open up - yes, be vulnerable - and get the help and support that you need.

Arianna · May 20, 2008

Hi everyone,

How are you today Katey, April? How are things going Katey?

I just feel totally overwhelmed, and i'm sure everyone hates me and is trying to get rid of me. I'm so useless. I don't really know how to explain it....but i don't really feel that it is worth resisting SI, who really cares if I cut myself.... and the next few weeks are going to be so crazy and stressful, i need somthing to help me get through it...

beckybooiloveu · May 20, 2008

hey everyone... sorry i havent been around... i have a bad case of tonsillitis which has had me in bed for the last two days... (im still in bed) it almost put me in hospital today... lucky i got out of that... anyways... praying for you all *hugs*

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