Suicidal because of loneliness.

[GirlInTheClouds]

[deeply sorry for being negative]

I can’t stand being so lonely anymore I hate my life so much and because of that I am starting to hate God. If there is God. I am struggling with living and believing. (edit)
I don’t want to live like this anymore. I’m at a point I have to force myself to live. Prayer is the only thing that is left. If God won’t help me then I’m out - I’m not a martyr.
Please don’t send me any private messages- if you could just take a minute and pray for me I would be very thankful. I desperately NEED Him to help me!! I don’t want just to give up on life. There’s so much I want to experience Why is He not here, helping me when I need Him the most? I don’t want to be miserable...

 

[Richard T]

Thank you for reaching out in this forum. Many will pray and ask that God intervene on your behalf. Be sure to reach out to others in your area such as a pastor, compassionate friend or health professionals who deal with such feelings. You are important to God and the body of Christ and things will surely get better.

 

[A_Thinker]

[deeply sorry for being negative]

I can’t stand being so lonely anymore I hate my life so much and because of that I am starting to hate God. If there is God. I am struggling with living and believing. I have come to realize that maybe Gods plan for my life is to commit a suicide to be a lesson for somebody.

I don’t want to live like this anymore. I’m at a point I have to force myself to live. Prayer is the only thing that is left. If God won’t help me then I’m out - I’m not a martyr.

Please don’t send me any private messages- if you could just take a minute and pray for me I would be very thankful. I desperately NEED Him to help me!! I don’t want just to give up on life. There’s so much I want to experience Why is He not here, helping me when I need Him the most? I don’t want to be miserable...

Are there no outlets for human interaction for you ?

I was unattached for the first 20 of my adult years, ... and found companionship with those who were interested in doing some the things that I liked to do. This included hobbies, groups, bible studies, etc.

This got me through until I found more personal companionship.

I'll be praying for you ...

 

[Southernscotty]

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline

Call 1-800-273-8255

There is never a reason big enough to commit suicide and it destroys your loved ones that are left.
Please do not consider this friend. Praying

 

[MMDave3]

"I have come to realize that maybe Gods plan for my life is to commit a suicide to be a lesson for somebody."

Simply not true. Don't give up on life. Whatever is bothering you, it can be fixed, but there's no coming back from suicide. I can't stress enough, whatever is wrong, IT CAN BE FIXED. The pain isn't permanent, even if it seems like it is.

 

[redleghunter]

[deeply sorry for being negative]

I can’t stand being so lonely anymore I hate my life so much and because of that I am starting to hate God. If there is God. I am struggling with living and believing. I have come to realize that maybe Gods plan for my life is to commit a suicide to be a lesson for somebody.
I don’t want to live like this anymore. I’m at a point I have to force myself to live. Prayer is the only thing that is left. If God won’t help me then I’m out - I’m not a martyr.
Please don’t send me any private messages- if you could just take a minute and pray for me I would be very thankful. I desperately NEED Him to help me!! I don’t want just to give up on life. There’s so much I want to experience Why is He not here, helping me when I need Him the most? I don’t want to be miserable...

Praying for you sister in our Lord Jesus Christ. He is our Hope.

Dig deep in Him.

 

[Heavenhome]

Prayers for you dear one
No matter how you feel while you are so down, please let me tell you that God has promised never to leave you or forsake you and He ALWAYS keeps His promises. Every single thing you feel He knows and I say hold on to Gods promises no matter how you feel.


Psalm 42 says "Trust in Him at all times;ye people, pour out your heart before Him: God is a refuge for us"

You are most precious to God and to us here and please believe me when I say you won't always feel this way.
May the Lord bless you and keep you.

 

[Hearingheart]

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline

Call 1-800-273-8255

There is never a reason big enough to commit suicide and it destroys your loved ones that are left.
Please do not consider this friend. Praying

THIS^^^

While we are praying for you, please call the above number. Love and hugs to you

 

[Kerensa]

Dear GirlInTheClouds, GOD LOVES YOU!!! As others here have said already, His plan is NOT for you to end your life to be a lesson for somebody. He would never call on His child to do that! When you have thoughts like that coming to you, even if they seem so intense and overwhelming, that's just the devil's lies talking, not God.

There will be someone you can talk to to help break through this mesmerism, whether it's a minister, a counsellor, or just a friend at church. Meanwhile, try actively looking for ways to express love and caring to others, even in the smallest things. Think of everything you have to be grateful for — make a list if you like, or keep a gratitude journal. You're already crying out to God and He has already heard you and is giving you the way forward, even if it seems you can't see it yet. These thoughts of suicide and hopelessness WILL fade away like a bad dream, which is really all they are. You have worth and purpose and so much to live for. God knows that and He WILL show you. My prayers are with you too, friend.

 

[Kelvin Owens]

Do not believe the lies from the devil. You will live and not die. The devil is a lier. Interceding for you directly to the Father. God has so much for you in your life that you shall be a living testimony to others. In Jesus name. Amen.

 

[siralex172]

It will get better, you are loved by people including Jesus himself. The Lord will make you strong because he is strong. And you will connect to people who will love you in a group such as a Christian bible study or life group. That is my prayer for you.

 

[Northbrook]

Dear GirlintheClouds,

1). An M.D. once told me, "All depressions lift." So don't commit an irrevocable act now, when all you have to do is wait for these low feelings to lift, as I said above.
2). My name is Lambrini, I'm a 55-year-old woman and I am going to private message you with my phone number. I want you to call me today. Being retired, I have the whole day free and I can talk to you for as long as you like to get you through this. I'm going to pm you now. Hang on!

 

[musicalpilgrim]

I join with all my prayer partners and bring you before the Lord.
I pray that you will come to Jesus and let him make you whole again..filling you with that wonderful peace that he can give.

 

[dqhall]

[deeply sorry for being negative]

I can’t stand being so lonely anymore I hate my life so much and because of that I am starting to hate God. If there is God. I am struggling with living and believing. I have come to realize that maybe Gods plan for my life is to commit a suicide to be a lesson for somebody.
I don’t want to live like this anymore. I’m at a point I have to force myself to live. Prayer is the only thing that is left. If God won’t help me then I’m out - I’m not a martyr.
Please don’t send me any private messages- if you could just take a minute and pray for me I would be very thankful. I desperately NEED Him to help me!! I don’t want just to give up on life. There’s so much I want to experience Why is He not here, helping me when I need Him the most? I don’t want to be miserable...

When I was in junior high, I remember I hated God once. God was not able to get through to me. I went down a road of shame and failure. When I was near suicide at the age of 22, God rescued me so that I no longer doubted God's existence. I doubted my own abilities. In helping others, you might find others will help you. Some were drawn to study the Bible to look for passages relevant to their recoveries. If God instructs you, you will be filled with knowledge.

 

[paul1149]

I hate my life so much and because of that I am starting to hate God. If there is God. I am struggling with living and believing. I have come to realize that maybe Gods plan for my life is to commit a suicide to be a lesson for somebody.

We already have too many of that kind of "lessons". They have no value, they're just a tragic waste of valuable human life. Don't become another statistic.

God loves you. He cannot not love you, or the Bible is a lie. And He has placed His word even above His name.

So if God loves us, why then can we become so miserable? Because sin is in the world. Don't be a victim, be a victor. The thing that holds you down, place on the altar. Place God first, above your feelings, above emotions, above your hopes and plans, even above legitimate needs. Exalt Him as your God, even if this life were never to go well for you.

And then watch Him work. Usually the first thing that happens is you start becoming free in your spirit. Then, next, doors start to open. It's funny how things work in the spirit when you please the Lord.

Take the focus off yourself and put it on Him, and watch Him advocate for you. You cannot outgive God.

And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that having all sufficiency in all things at all times, you may abound in every good work. -2Cor 9:8​

 

[Northbrook]

Dear GirlintheClouds,

Hi, this is Lambrini again. It occurred to me that in my post of earlier today (see above), maybe instead of offering my own help by giving you my phone number, I should tell you that there are CHAPLAINS on this Christian Forums website. Unlike me, they are trained professionals. Go to this link:

https://www.christianforums.com/forums/chaplains-office.1223/

God bless you,

Lambrini
Northbrook, IL

 

[AnnaDeborah]

Dear @GirlInTheClouds Hang in there! I was in your position once, but praise God, I didn't carry my plan through, and now I am so glad that I didn't!

Please talk to someone - suicide prevention helpline, pastor, family or friend. Or to the chaplains on this site. If you just want a random chat to someone you don't know, you're welcome to PM me too if it would help.

Whatever the question, suicide is NEVER the answer. I know that probably doesn't sound believable to you right now, but trust those of us who've been there before and come through it.

Praying for you. Lots of love xxx

 

[dreadnought]

[deeply sorry for being negative]

I can’t stand being so lonely anymore I hate my life so much and because of that I am starting to hate God. If there is God. I am struggling with living and believing. (edit)
I don’t want to live like this anymore. I’m at a point I have to force myself to live. Prayer is the only thing that is left. If God won’t help me then I’m out - I’m not a martyr.
Please don’t send me any private messages- if you could just take a minute and pray for me I would be very thankful. I desperately NEED Him to help me!! I don’t want just to give up on life. There’s so much I want to experience Why is He not here, helping me when I need Him the most? I don’t want to be miserable...

Two things seem to prevent me from being lonely - the Lord (constant prayer) and my church.

 

[AnnaDeborah]

@GirlInTheClouds how are you doing today?

 

[AnnaDeborah]

Dear @GirlInTheClouds still thinking of you and we are all still here for you. If you see this, please log in and let us know how you're doing. Don't give up hope. xxx