Leviticus 19 verse 14 states
It continues to amaze me the way in which people think it is alright, that it is okay to prevent me from knowing the full truth of what has been going on in my life. I am blind in many ways because I am unable to see and remember things I should. As a result I have spent a lot of time trying to understand by asking questions, by wanting to work out things, by having proper conversations. I have also spent a lot of time doing everything wrong, apologizing doing the same thing again, over and over not knowing, not remembering what I did. It is like walking in circles all the time for me.
Instead of people contacting me, my alter who is stronger, to help me to figure things out, to understand things, they happily keep me in perpetual darkness.
The father of my children has tried to contact me. Once he sent a message apparently but the oddest thing is I could not reply to him, call him back etc I don't know if it is because of the type of phone I have or a deliberate attempt by someone to prevent me from contacting him and sorting things us. Once he called me and my alter heard someone (him) asking for me but my alter heard him say a completely different name, in other words I did not know it was him, I heard him ask for a particular person which was not me and I said "wrong number". I am not sure how much times this has happened. I am not sure what to do about this.
I am also unable to recognize the father of my children often, when I do him I see my father instead, other people instead etc which is confusing for me.
It is very frustrating.
It continues to amaze me the way in which people think it is alright, that it is okay to prevent me from knowing the full truth of what has been going on in my life. I am blind in many ways because I am unable to see and remember things I should. As a result I have spent a lot of time trying to understand by asking questions, by wanting to work out things, by having proper conversations. I have also spent a lot of time doing everything wrong, apologizing doing the same thing again, over and over not knowing, not remembering what I did. It is like walking in circles all the time for me.
Instead of people contacting me, my alter who is stronger, to help me to figure things out, to understand things, they happily keep me in perpetual darkness.
The father of my children has tried to contact me. Once he sent a message apparently but the oddest thing is I could not reply to him, call him back etc I don't know if it is because of the type of phone I have or a deliberate attempt by someone to prevent me from contacting him and sorting things us. Once he called me and my alter heard someone (him) asking for me but my alter heard him say a completely different name, in other words I did not know it was him, I heard him ask for a particular person which was not me and I said "wrong number". I am not sure how much times this has happened. I am not sure what to do about this.
I am also unable to recognize the father of my children often, when I do him I see my father instead, other people instead etc which is confusing for me.
It is very frustrating.
