for the past few months, i've been struggling with what God means for me to do in my life. when i was young, i wanted to be a doctor. crazily enough a few months ago while iwas *talking to God* i suddenly wanted to become a youth pastor. ever since then i've been looking into the role of women in ministry becuase i've only ever met 1 woman minister. i found very demeaning passages in the bible toward women. i'm dissapointed, discouraged, and completely drained of purpose. i was just lisetning to Ginny Owens "if you want me to" and the lyrics were about walking throught the valley if God wills it. i've been thinking... with all the stuff mentioned in the bible, God won't want a woman to evangalize! God doesn't want women to teach! everything that i've wanted to do, make an impact in a young person's life, turn people to God, teach others about Christ, i've wanted to do all of this as a respected being, not a housewife. i dont want to have to put a MAN's well being and will before that of the church, before that of a member of a church, before that of God. i know i can do all of this without becoming a pastor and if i marry the right christian, but i dont want to. it seems pointless for me to live if i'm only meant to marry someone and have kids- if that is my only purpose here on earth. I want to have a major impact. i want to be asked to speak at churches. I want to lead a congregation. All of this is forbidden in some passages of the bible.
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