Something is off.

[berry2000]

My mood has slipped. REally depressed. Even my husband keeps asking me what has changed, why am I like this, like I know the answer to those questions. When I feel like this those questions just irriatate me. And I know he's just trying to figure things out. But then again so am I.

 

[Crystal~Rose]

I'm sorry to hear your feeling off..I completely understand. I wish I had great words of wisdom, yet I am new to this whole thing. I understand your frustration, sometimes I wish others understood what baffles me so I could find understanding myself. Take care I hope you find some peace and wake up happy.

 

[goldenviolet]

http://www.christianforums.com/t2495622-us-bipolar-exsperts-on-managing-skills.html

don't forget to surround yourself with things you love and thinks that distract you from feeling uckie.

 

[walshclan]

My mood has slipped. REally depressed. Even my husband keeps asking me what has changed, why am I like this, like I know the answer to those questions. When I feel like this those questions just irriatate me. And I know he's just trying to figure things out. But then again so am I.

I'm sorry you're not feeling well Berry. Goldenviolet has lots of good suggestions in the other thread.

Did you ever go talk to your doc? Can you go talk to him/her now? You can use the forums to show that you've gone up and down a bunch of times. I've been praying for you.

Dear God, I lift up your daughter, Berry, we thank you God for your daughter Berry, we appreciate her so much here. All of her wonderful kind words to us, make us feel so loved. We ask that you relieve Berry's depression that you take it away completely. We know that healing is done my your stripes Lord Jesus. We understand that it is in your mighty power to heal her but that it may not be the time. We will all be healed in time (praise be God). We ask that Berry have the peace that surpasses all understanding if she is not healed right away. In Jesus' name Amen.

Connie

 

[wonderwaleye]

Dear Berry2000


Danger!!! If it's clinical depression there is NOTHING you or anyone can do for you EXCEPT your doctor.


Don't wait very long if you are in pain. OR You will be looking for a way out!!!


There are meds that WILL stop this. Sometime it takes time to find them. BUT Stay on the doctors back until you obtain relief!!!


If he does not do it then get someone that will. Your life DEPENDS upon it.


NO one will understand unless they have been there. They just think your down in the dumps.


A prayer has been said for you.


NO MATTER WHAT, ALWAYS REMEMBER:





X Even though you can't see him, GOD is there!!! O
( click on the x and drag to the O ) ( then see who is with you ) steven

 

[berry2000]

Thanks you guys I am so appreciative of this site and all of your guyses support.
You know it's weird but I'm feeling a bit better. My T always said when you find the right meds you'll still have ups and downs but it won't be as intense as before and you'll just visit those places for a short while. I kind of feel like that's the point I'm at now.
You'd be proud of me. I told my H that I didn't think worrying was in order but that I was feeling a bit depressed. He was kind and understanding and we decided that a trip to the beach might be in order. And it really helped I"m feeling a lot less depressed. Some sun, a good book, played with my kids a little. Anyways I'm feeling better. STill a little slowed and a little down but nothing like yesterday. I guess my T is right that the mood swings continue but they are a much more tolerable and easier to work through.

 

[wonderwaleye]

Dear Berry2000


Maybe you just had the

" SUNNY DAY AT THE BEACH "

DEPRESSION!!!

LOL


Word to the Wise though, and I'm not saying your doing this, but Don't cry wolf as we depend on those close to us to get help when it's really needed.


If you had clinical depression a day at the beach wouldn't do anything. You probably wouldn't even go to the beach.


If your meds are right you should not have these ups and downs.


REMEMBER:





X Even though you can't see him, GOD is there!!! O
( click on the x and drag to the O ) ( then see who is with you ) steven

 

[berry2000]

Well that's a little confusing. I don't think I was crying wolf ( I know you said you weren't saying that but I'm just thinking about it) cuz it was my husband that pointed out my mood swing first even though I knew something was off. He noticed on his own. I've had clinical depression before I know that it wasn't that bad. But sometimes it is hard to know if it will turn into that. Maybe the ups and downs are muted somewhat because the meds are helping. I mean I know they are helping. And the same time I am truly still having the ups and downs.

 

[wonderwaleye]

Well that's a little confusing. I don't think I was crying wolf ( I know you said you weren't saying that but I'm just thinking about it) cuz it was my husband that pointed out my mood swing first even though I knew something was off. He noticed on his own. I've had clinical depression before I know that it wasn't that bad. But sometimes it is hard to know if it will turn into that. Maybe the ups and downs are muted somewhat because the meds are helping. I mean I know they are helping. And the same time I am truly still having the ups and downs.

Dear Berry2000


Then bug your doctor or get a new one.


His work is not at bay till he has you on an even keel.


This does take time for trial and error but has to be done if we are to have a good life for ourselves and the loved ones around us.


The doctor has no reason to do more if we don't stay in constant contact till things are right. You will Know if you have the right doctor or not by the way he tends to your problem.



ALWAYS KEEP IN MIND THAT IT IS ONLY YOU THAT HAS TO LIVE THE REST OF YOUR LIFE, SO WITH THAT IN MIND, DO WHAT YOU MUST DO!!!


AND REMEMBER:





X Even though you can't see him, GOD is there!!! O
( click on the x and drag to the O ) ( then see who is with you ) steven

 

[PrairieGurl]

Thanks you guys I am so appreciative of this site and all of your guyses support.
You know it's weird but I'm feeling a bit better. My T always said when you find the right meds you'll still have ups and downs but it won't be as intense as before and you'll just visit those places for a short while. I kind of feel like that's the point I'm at now.
You'd be proud of me. I told my H that I didn't think worrying was in order but that I was feeling a bit depressed. He was kind and understanding and we decided that a trip to the beach might be in order. And it really helped I"m feeling a lot less depressed. Some sun, a good book, played with my kids a little. Anyways I'm feeling better. STill a little slowed and a little down but nothing like yesterday. I guess my T is right that the mood swings continue but they are a much more tolerable and easier to work through.

Dearest Berry ,

This post sure answers alot of questions I had on 'ups & downs'. I heard many of these things (cause I have the notebook with the 'message') in the 'Living With B/P' classes I took a while back. They made no sense to me because I was basically 'out of it'. My Mom had come with me to these classes and kept elbowing me whenever anything was said that related to my life. Believe me ... I came away with a bruised arm

My H has a guage of 'where' I am at. First question he asks is 'Did you take your meds'?, then 'Do you need to see Doc'?, moving onto ' Did you have devotions'? and finally...'Did you call Mary'? (My soulmate/Big Sis in Christ, knows more about me than most people)

My Auntie who struggles with depression said when ever her H would ask her to take a walk...no matter how she felt, even if she had to crawl or just make it out the door...she went.

I am going back to work tomorrow for the 1st time since March of this year...only a 4 hour shift...talk about anxiety!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so scared...I feel like curling up and hideing...not so good for me

Anyways...I know by loving others and praying for others...my mind is off self (to a point )

With lots of s & s,
Wendy

 

[PrairieGurl]

OPPS....

I didn't realize how long that 'reply' was. I apologize

 

[berry2000]

It wasn't long. No worries. CAn you tell me more about the class. And your understanding of the ups and downs. ARe mine totally different than other BP's or does it resound a bell with others. Truth is I'm not sure I am BP at all, never had a solid diagnosis. Still trying to figure things out. So I may be misdiagnosed which is why my ups and downs seem different than real BP ups and downs.

Wow...what good questions your H asks you. Although if my h asked me if I took my meds I might get offended but I liked the other questions.

Good luck at the new job!

 

[PrairieGurl]

Oh Berry ... I wish it was a new job, I'm returning to the Diagnostic Imaging Dept. I left and went on disability from. (could be walking into 'hostile' atmosphere )

I guess class wasn't the correct word. Bipolar Education Group was the name. It was offered thru our Mental Health Services here in town. We had a Mood - Chart which we filled out every week for the 10 weeks of group. We met every Tuesday for 10 weeks
Here are a few of the topics:
B/p: Understanding the Full Spectrum
Introduction to Cognitive Restructuring
Medical Management
Square Pattern of Breathing
Stress fManagement
Anger Management
Sleep and Mood Disorders
Community Resources (to continue to seek support)
Follow up appointment with Mental Health Nurse

All I can use as an example of ups and downs is I have had a few hypomanias during the time I started these new meds. NOT extreme like they used to be. Just cleaning like a mad woman and I guess spending too much money Then of course I would crash...but just with lots of sleep for a couple days.

This job I am returning too....is causeing alot of stress.
I'm scared of facing these people again. It's really hard to express it in words at the moment. This is why I'll be spending quite awhile on CF tonight. Looking for hope, encouragement and support.

Hope this helps somewhat Berry.

s & s
Wendy

 

[spdnet75]

Berry,

The greatest weapon in your arsenal, is the knowledge that the people here are behind you and that you will never be alone.

All of those details that you are looking for answeres to, will come, with time.

Take care and God bless!

Stephen

 

[berry2000]

aW Wendy bless your heart. I don't know how it was when you left of the specifics but my work was so thrilled when I came back from my leave a year ago. They were just happy I was well enough to be with them again. Wishing the same for you!

 

[PrairieGurl]

aW Wendy bless your heart. I don't know how it was when you left of the specifics but my work was so thrilled when I came back from my leave a year ago. They were just happy I was well enough to be with them again. Wishing the same for you!

You know Berry... your wish came true The office gals weren't too thrilled to 'have me back, but that really isn't in their character. But the x-ray techs were very happy to see me back. I believe this is to do with the fact...whatever I do is, as unto the Lord. And my Parents taught me to give 110% in anything I do.
And I SO enjoy my job in X-ray!

s & s,
Wendy

 

[rushingwind62]

Well that's a little confusing. I don't think I was crying wolf ( I know you said you weren't saying that but I'm just thinking about it) cuz it was my husband that pointed out my mood swing first even though I knew something was off. He noticed on his own. I've had clinical depression before I know that it wasn't that bad. But sometimes it is hard to know if it will turn into that. Maybe the ups and downs are muted somewhat because the meds are helping. I mean I know they are helping. And the same time I am truly still having the ups and downs.

life is full of ups and downs even when you are on the right meds. I think you did the right thing by getting out and going to the beach. It helps tremdously to get out when we are a little down. I do think a med change for you is in order though., because you are still having major mood swings. Discuss it with your Dr.....but in the mean time when you are feeling down get out, do not isolate yourself, that would be the worse thing for you right now. Keep talking to your hubby about what you are feeling and going through, you have a great support system in him. And most of all keep the faith sister, with God's help you will get through this and feel more stable in time......God Bless You....Rush