- Oct 25, 2018
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I have been struggling with my relationship with God for years now..
I want to grow closer to him like i was and even closer than that but i have something inside me that isn’t allowing me to do so.
Last night i had a dream, a very vivid dream that i am still trying to understand the meaning of..
In my dream i was laying in bed asleep.. I had my eyes closed. I heard and saw my friend trying to wake me up.
As my friend was trying to wake me up a bright light hit my left eye and i opened my eyes, in the dream, but i was still asleep.. i was dreaming within a dream...
When i opened my eyes this beam of light was shooting through the ceiling.. at that moment i felt something grab my life within me and it felt as if i couldn’t breath.. I could still hear my friend and see my friend trying to wake me up in this dream.. I tried to open my eyes but something wouldn’t let me.. It felt as if i was being dragged out of my body and at that moment i said, in my dream, “Please, no, i’m not ready to go yet, i haven’t made things right with God.”. And right after i said that i actually woke up in real life.. and it felt so real.. as if something was tugging me..
When people talk about God or pray around me or for me i feel uneasy and somewhat uncomfortable..
I want to get closer to God now.. I have a baby on the way and i was to be able to raise her with the love of God..
I don’t know if this is related to my struggle with God but I don’t feel attached to my baby as well.. I have always wanted to be a mother and am excited for what is to come.. I feel her kick and move but I don’t feel like i love her like i should yet and I don’t know why..
I just don’t know what to do to get closer to God.. I feel as if i don’t have the will to do it because i feel as if something is stopping me.. something is giving me these feelings and i cant do anything about it because when i do i almost feel embarrassed when i try to pray or try to read the Bible..
I need help and guidance,..
I want to grow closer to him like i was and even closer than that but i have something inside me that isn’t allowing me to do so.
Last night i had a dream, a very vivid dream that i am still trying to understand the meaning of..
In my dream i was laying in bed asleep.. I had my eyes closed. I heard and saw my friend trying to wake me up.
As my friend was trying to wake me up a bright light hit my left eye and i opened my eyes, in the dream, but i was still asleep.. i was dreaming within a dream...
When i opened my eyes this beam of light was shooting through the ceiling.. at that moment i felt something grab my life within me and it felt as if i couldn’t breath.. I could still hear my friend and see my friend trying to wake me up in this dream.. I tried to open my eyes but something wouldn’t let me.. It felt as if i was being dragged out of my body and at that moment i said, in my dream, “Please, no, i’m not ready to go yet, i haven’t made things right with God.”. And right after i said that i actually woke up in real life.. and it felt so real.. as if something was tugging me..
When people talk about God or pray around me or for me i feel uneasy and somewhat uncomfortable..
I want to get closer to God now.. I have a baby on the way and i was to be able to raise her with the love of God..
I don’t know if this is related to my struggle with God but I don’t feel attached to my baby as well.. I have always wanted to be a mother and am excited for what is to come.. I feel her kick and move but I don’t feel like i love her like i should yet and I don’t know why..
I just don’t know what to do to get closer to God.. I feel as if i don’t have the will to do it because i feel as if something is stopping me.. something is giving me these feelings and i cant do anything about it because when i do i almost feel embarrassed when i try to pray or try to read the Bible..
I need help and guidance,..