So Upset RN

[Angeleyes7715]

Work in the U.S. makes me so upset all the time. Broke down crying today cause of how bad I hate living in the U.S. and the no work/life balance culture. If I want to do anything meaningful or fun with my life before I retire ( which is actually die for most ppl cause plenty don't make it to retirement or are to sick to enjoy it) that's the worst thing in the world to most Americans including my bf. I'd really rather be dead than live one more day in this slave country that lies to ppl telling them they are free.

I can't be happy! Not with the kind of life my bf seems to push on me. Working 40 hours a week, have dinner cooked, and the house cleaned too, eventually I'll be expected to take care of children as well, I'll be infertile with all this stress! There's no way I can do this all. Then he wants me to yo play basketball or go to family events like Superbowl parties on the weekends so other people can take up even more of my time!!!!! It's making me crazy. I don't want to deal with other people! I toId him I simply want to work less than 40 hours and work a higher paying job as well as invest and build things which generate passive income. I don't want to spend every waking moment at work with coworkers I hate! He says no that's not enough money! I said but I'm studying software development my salary will be high. Still he says no that won't be enough.

Maybe it just feels long because my current job is a pharmacy call center and I hate it with every ounce of hate in me, but still 40 hours seems so long even the things I love I couldn't do for 40 hours a week it's too much! And then when I get home I try to study code, work out, clean, run errands, etc. On the weekends I try to work on my books, or paint, I don't have time to plop in front of the TV like other Americans. I have so much I want to do with my life and my annoying job is taking it all away from me.

On top of this my bf wants my time too and it's just like aaggghhh!!!! I just I really don't want to deal with people. I don't. I have the INTJ-T personality which is only like 2% of the population so I'd rather just get away from everyone and spend my time the way I want to being free writing books and thinking and day dreaming and traveling.

I feel like no one in the world knows how I feel cause they are all crazy extroverts who spend all their time talking and partying on the weekends. They don't get how much my hobbies and alone time means to me. I could spend forever in my own thoughts dreaming and planning. It feels like everyone tells me how to live in this country and I'd rather simply not be if I can't live how I want!

 

[Jeshu]

i have been where you are no and reap nothing but misery, no future and no hope thinking like that i found. just misery upon misery.

Honest it is best to find your life back in God's perspective. He will know a way out for you. He will preserve your life. Please don't get me wrong nothing wrong hating the System, i hate the beast of this earth as well. Have you noticed how they have numbered everything? They even try to number our souls.

The Word of God tells us that desolations have been degreed. These are hard times for God's chosen because they don't fit in, and don't like what is going on. While the majority seems blind and idolizes the Beast we read.

However in and with God's love we ought to build our reality with, not this miserable world's. When we do that then we can learn to live in this world and learn to love people around us and be a light to those around us. For we will hate the wicked and be strangers to the System but caring and free individuals down here. It is awesome to find peace in God's design and know that you are loved and cared for even as you see the corruption of the world peaking all around and at times it is very hard to envision more of this evil to come.

So please find safety in God's truth and build your life on His loving truth and you will escape the harsh reality this world has here down below for us.

Wishing you God's love pondering this.

Feasting My Good Life.
The Wicked captivated my truth
the truth of my heart and mind
and wound me around their lies
knotted me out of my own reality
into the dungeons of torture below.

Unable to unravel their cob webs
the wicked took control of my life
and brought much pain and misery
feasting on my God given good life
at the expense of my own welfare.

Yet when Christ light lit up my night
and i saw Him on the clouds of heaven
The Wicked sprung all their traps
thinking i was as good as dead
trapped in their nasty fowler's nets.

Yet the Lion of the tribe of Judea
killed the goats great and small
and set me free from their control
and gave me back my freedom in Him
feasting good times growing New Life.

 

[Noxot]

it might seem bad but things seem to me to be way better than they used to be. no doubt you should make them even better if you can. we take for granted how easy it is to have clean drinking water, food and shelter. some humans had simpler lives or easier lives and yet look at the amount of novelty we have in our modern world. so there are pros and cons to most things.

this is the best humans have come up with so far. it seems you have plans on how to escape from the rat race. goals are good to have. some think that having purpose and meaning in your life is more important than always being happy.

 

[Albion]

Don't give up, Angeleyes. There is always an alternative that can be pursued, no matter what the situation you find yourself in happens to be. That's the case with all of us.

Figuring out what that alternative is can require some careful thought and exploration, though.

 

[Grateful266]

Angeleyes, can you get your boyfriend to share more of the chores (cooking, cleaning, etc)?