SO close...

[shoutuntogod]

I came really close to telling my pastor about my ED this week. Now he knows something is really wrong with me. He's really nice and supportive, and wants me to get help, even though he doesn't know the real problem. He asked if I was contemplating suicide though. I told him I'm not, because it's true! But then I thought that an ED is just a sort of slow suicide in a way, isn't it..? I told him I'm really worried because this "problem" puts a barrier between God and I and I don't know what to do about it.

I don't know why I'm posting this, but any prayers would be helpful, because I need to tell someone that this is torture. I'm going away for the summer so I may not be able to tell anyone until I get back. My plan right now is to become so thin that it will be obvious and I won't have to it out loud, which is really stupid, I know...but I honestly don't know what else to do.

 

[swifteagle]

Hi ShoutuntoGod!!!

Sounds like you have a really wonderful Pastor. You know the Lord gave you that Pastor to look after you. You REALLY need to tell him!

Many times when people struggle with serious health issues the enemy takes advantage of your thought processes. That means you don't think straight. Getting thinner so your pain is obvious is NOT the way to go. Besides, the Lord loves YOU!

God is drawing you to reveal your secret or you wouldn't have posted here. Trust the Lord enough to let your Pastor know about it. There is so much the Lord wants to do in your life and He wants to start by bringing you into total healing ~ body, soul & spirit. He died for you to be healed totally. I will pray for you.

Lord, bless Shoutuntogod! Help her to know You! To know Your love and Your power towards her. That she can trust you totally. You lead her beside still waters and restore her soul. You will protect her and You, Lord desire her healing even MORE than she does. You are totally comitted to seeing her well. Holy Spirit, come and bring her hope and draw her to a place of confidence in You. Help her to reach out and get the help that she needs ~ let her see that getting help is a sign of maturity and faith. Bless her Lord, in Jesus name. Amen!

swifteage ><>>

 

[shoutuntogod]

Thanks for the words of wisdom swifteagle, I really appreciate your prayers. God bless you!

 

[luv4godremains]

Lord, we ask that you would bless your daughter, help her to see you, to see the truth, release her from her pain, and help her see and deal with the nuderlying issue that has driven her to this. We ask that you would give her strength to talk to someone, to let her pastor know, and to get the right help that she needs. We ask that you would be with her as she tries to get better, and as she tries to fight this illness. give her support and guidance through this all! amen