Has anyone ever had a long slump in thier relationship with Christ? This past year i have felt so far from God. I guess its what St. John of the Cross would call "The DarkNight of the Soul". I was so close to God a year ago andhad a potentially awesome relationship with this girl. Then, who would have thought, she pulled the BEST FRIEND CARD (at least thats my name for it). She said she didnt feel the same towards me, that she wasnt intrested in going out with me. Of course we are bnot friends anymore. Whenever she sees me she says "hi", like eveythings ok, but we never talk. I got tired of her never calling me or always being to busy, even goign out with nummerous guys within the past year. I prayed to God and really thought she was for me. Which started my confusion. How does one know if they are hearing themselves or the Holy Spirit? Anyways, since then ive gotten deeper and deeper in a spiritual rut. Im in college and my roomates have girlfriends, so that makes me feel extremly lonely somtimes (especially when im the single guy and joked about). Ive even begun to look at things on the internet...lustful images and they dont fill the emptiness. They only fill an urge for a second but then im left the same. I know Christ should be my all, but i feel so distant from Him. Im trying to go back to God, to hear his voice, but its hard when you feel like hes gone. Do any of you ever feel like your life is lacking purpose? That you are so far from where God wants you? I mean im a guy and all but sometimes my sin makes me want to cry. I never would have thought tjhat i could have fallen so far becuase i was so close to God. I guess it just proves that we are not all perfect and need to constantly persue and run after Christ more than anything, more than anyone else.