I wouldn't worry about that. God, by grace, has freed you from fear (including that particular one) so that you may freely love as you have been loved. So, worry about love.
If we truly worry about love alone, than we spend less time with other worries. We then begin to live one foot in the Divine Kingdom and one foot upon the earth. Those who have lived such lives in the history of mankind, we call Saints. And those who died for love, we call Martyrs. Those holy men and women give us hope by their example, and they give us instruction by their faith.
These giants amongst our spiritual forefathers fell on their knees and prayed with tears for the souls of those who would torture them and who killed them.
This is perfect love, and in such love, there is no fear.
Unless, however, we have such love, (which is the indeed the love of Christ), we should fear hell every waking moment of our lives.
But not as those who live without hope! For we see the example of the Saints and their repentance, and how they struggled and found the love of Christ. We have such Saints, many who interceede for us right now before the altar of God.
We must learn to live as Saints, and replace hate with mercy and through love, extinguish fear.
And by God’s great mercy, even we who have often fallen, might find ourselves enter into the Heavenly Banquet and into eternal life.
As St. John the Beloved of Christ said to his flock which he shepherded, well into his years, when he was so old that needed to be carried about:
“Love one another.”
By this instruction, St. John the Theologian summed up the Gospel, and on how they would find everlasting life in the Kingdom of Heaven. “Love one another”
May he intercede to our Almighty God on our behalf, and may our Lord Jesus Christ have mercy upon us sinners.