Thank you for asking. I fell away for a long time, myself. Then events in my life, led me back to a more intimate relationship with the Lord, going to church, and a prayer life. Having a prayer life, means that you open up to the Lord. Talk to him, that is what prayers are. I try to read the Bible an hour a day. That is his written Word. So a lot of "responses", are actually already in there. That's why it helps to read the Bible often. I have found his Word to be most helpful as it is full of truth and the tools to help you discern where to turn and how to identify people that are trustworthy. Do things to help you stay connected to God. Others are for support and guidance. They are brothers and sisters in Christ, nothing more. We are all fellow servants of the Lord.
When it comes to "heavy shepherding", read this link
What is heavy shepherding?
It explains in great detail. A lot of questions you might have.
Maybe you feel scared, or unsure, because the Holy Spirit is telling you that something is wrong. First and foremost, Focus on God and let your trust be in him. Open your heart and your mind to the Lord in all your ways. Don't allow people to conform you into a particular way of thinking, because your relationship with the Lord is truly between you and him. I myself have had some pretty off the wall views at times, and consider myself to be rather "outside the box". But I also enjoy a relationship with the Lord, and peace with him, and strength with him, that I rarely see in other believers. That is because I talk to the Lord, and he with me. Prayer is important. It is personal. Again, that link above may help a lot. Actually taught me a few things looking it up. For that I am grateful for your question. I shall pray for you. May the Lord put his hedge of protection around you. Bless you.