i've been attending my local baptist church for some time. one thing i'm always envious of are the people i see who seem to be swept along by the whole emotion of the church experience, hands in the air, etc etc. i guess i have a bit of a natural reserve which stops me throwing myself into things too readily but i feel that there is some kind of deeper with God experience that i'm missing out on. i'm not sure if it's part of the problem but my wife was going to church a long time before me and i therefore knew quite a lot of the people at church for some time before going myself. i guess i was known as a bit of a sceptic before then and i don't know whether that is something at the back of my mind that stops me deepening my relationship with God. maybe there is some kind of almost embarrassment (if that is the right word) at being seen to go from being someone sceptical to what i would have previously described as a 'happy clappy christian'. not sure if this is really part of the problem. i guess i'm just speculating.