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More that I think about it, don't scratch that if it is meant for SI. 
Well, despite my good mood, this morning got of to a rough start, and barely starting over after 5 months after cutting once, I cut again. *Groan.
My Mom and I had a verbal fight which was mostly one sided on her part. She woke up in a bad mood and started taking it out on me. She doesn't usually but I got upset because she was calling me selfish and mean because I spend a lot of time on the computer and anytime she talks about her health (it is like she enjoys it
) I get upset and I told her yesterday. It is all she ever talks about and it triggers me because I don't like thinking about it. She keeps saying I need to know but she doesn't realize what an effect it is having on me. I don't mean to be selfish, I just can't stand that right now... Anyway, after I cut, it is like everything came to a sudden hault and 20 minutes later after she had her coffee upset, and I cried in my room we made up...
Day 1, No, Day 1, DAY 1 AGAIN!!!
I thought I conquered it when I didn't cut for so long.
Oh well, I will start over again and get it right. I just got to keep jumping back up. I am just happy now!
Well, despite my good mood, this morning got of to a rough start, and barely starting over after 5 months after cutting once, I cut again. *Groan.
My Mom and I had a verbal fight which was mostly one sided on her part. She woke up in a bad mood and started taking it out on me. She doesn't usually but I got upset because she was calling me selfish and mean because I spend a lot of time on the computer and anytime she talks about her health (it is like she enjoys it
) I get upset and I told her yesterday. It is all she ever talks about and it triggers me because I don't like thinking about it. She keeps saying I need to know but she doesn't realize what an effect it is having on me. I don't mean to be selfish, I just can't stand that right now... Anyway, after I cut, it is like everything came to a sudden hault and 20 minutes later after she had her coffee upset, and I cried in my room we made up... Day 1, No, Day 1, DAY 1 AGAIN!!!
I thought I conquered it when I didn't cut for so long.
Oh well, I will start over again and get it right. I just got to keep jumping back up. I am just happy now!
