Scratch that Again!

[Mayflower1]

More that I think about it, don't scratch that if it is meant for SI.

Well, despite my good mood, this morning got of to a rough start, and barely starting over after 5 months after cutting once, I cut again. *Groan.

My Mom and I had a verbal fight which was mostly one sided on her part. She woke up in a bad mood and started taking it out on me. She doesn't usually but I got upset because she was calling me selfish and mean because I spend a lot of time on the computer and anytime she talks about her health (it is like she enjoys it ) I get upset and I told her yesterday. It is all she ever talks about and it triggers me because I don't like thinking about it. She keeps saying I need to know but she doesn't realize what an effect it is having on me. I don't mean to be selfish, I just can't stand that right now... Anyway, after I cut, it is like everything came to a sudden hault and 20 minutes later after she had her coffee upset, and I cried in my room we made up...

Day 1, No, Day 1, DAY 1 AGAIN!!!

I thought I conquered it when I didn't cut for so long.

Oh well, I will start over again and get it right. I just got to keep jumping back up. I am just happy now!

 

[Sisof8]

That's right baby, jump back up and say "TODAY there is new grace for me! God has wiped my slate clean."

 

[Umber]

5 months is incredible. ^__^

Don't feel bad, just try not to get caught in the cycle again. I'm really impressed by both your stamina and attitude. Oh, and happy Birthday.

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

Some beautiful flowers for a beautiful young lady. You're doing great Lily and it's awesome to see that you're going to start again. You're determination is inspiring

 

[HolyOne87]

its okay..even the best of us stumble. Just do as you did..just get up and move forth with God at your side.
I have faith in you that things will brighten up!
I shall pray that they do!