Scared

[Leta]

I am so scared, I have b/p and si and I cut really deep. My head is spinning and I am so weak. I feel hopeless, useless, alone. I know I need help but I am afraid. Noone knows what I am doing and the real me that noone sees is a frightened, damaged, and very depressed . I'm hiding it all and if my friends were to find out they'd reject me and shun me. They'd be so upset with me and I need them more now then ever. I need help but I don't know what to do and I don't even know if I want to get it anyway. How messed up is that!
Saleta

 

[WhereareyouGod?]

Its not messed up hun! You need to stop putting on a fake you hun sooner or later you won't know who the real you is, if your friends are real friends they will stick around and help you with this.

Feel free to pm me or add me on msn or whatever, would be happy to help

Love n huge hugs

Lizzie

 

[luv4godremains]

Its not messed up hun! You need to stop putting on a fake you hun sooner or later you won't know who the real you is, if your friends are real friends they will stick around and help you with this.

Feel free to pm me or add me on msn or whatever, would be happy to help

Love n huge hugs

Lizzie

i agree. i know what it's like to lose yourself to a fake you and not know who you really are anymore. i know what it is like to be abandoned by your 'friends', i know it sucks and hurts, but your better off without them if they are going to abandon you, they would want you to be around for them, so they should be around for you. you sound like a really nice person and I'm sure you could make plenty of friends with people who will really love you for who you are and support you. they would want to support you am maybe they could even help you, if you could just find one of your friends even to confide in, and maybe they would be willing to help you, even help you seek out professional help, i know it's a hard step to take, but if you take things one small step at a time, then it will be easier, that what I'm doing, and now, i've even found the courage to go see a doctor about my depression. It will take time and quick fixes never work properly, so it's best to try to find what fits you and your lofestyle best. just wait untill you are ready, but maybe you need to think about going to a doctor, even though it's hard.

well...
just some thoughts.
God bless, stay strong, and may God's love be with you evry step of the way.
will be praying for healing for you and the strength to continue.

 

[beetlequeendiva]

Hey sweetie, it's really not messed up!!! it's so easy to put on a "fake" you - I did it for years and now I am the real me and I can't pretend with some of my friends!!! It's not easy but try to be yourself, being fake is not worth it - it doesn't make you happy!!!