I realize the music probably won't be something most you enjoy (metal) however the lyrics are some ive related to a WHOLE lot in the past year or so. Especially this part
Am I addicted to the misery, is this how I’ll always be?
Grinding the salt into every wound
Am I in love with all my ailments, glutton for punishment?
You can’t trust me to be there for you
I’ve got this cold black silhouette hanging like a marionette,
Casting a shadow, a shade over me
Just a sick, sad, sorry mess, living like a [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]
Your worst impressions were right about me
I could ask you to stay, if you’re feeling forgiving
I could live with the guilt, if you call this living
I could try to memorise each grain of sand
As it slips through my fingers, and falls from my hands
It took me longer than I’d care to admit
This life is only what I choose to make of it
And the only thing standing in-between happiness and myself
Was this depression I held so close to my chest