THANK YOU FOR READING THIS THREAD WHOEVER YOU ARE! How can the Holy Ghost dwell in a sinner? I repent everyday but repeat the same sin the very next day sometimes the same day or hour. The sin is drug use. I am addicted to methadone i get from a clinic and since i have gone down 60 mg on my daily dose within the last year, my cravings have returned and I have been using some heroin . I am ashamed. I am so scared that I am a reprobate and am a sinner sowing calamity.My heart and spirit are so heavy. Yeshua is my only hope but I dont obey His Fathers Holy Commandments. I see drugs as idolatry and a sort of emotional sorcery, or pharmakaiea. No matter how hard i try to will myself away from it , my own will returns to it like a dog returning to its vomit. I am selfishly living my life saying I love Abba Father and I love Yeshua, but i seem to love following my destruction more. I pray with tears and pining and moaning and yearning and shame. I pray knowing I am completely unworthy of His salvation or redemption, I confess my sins. I verbally repent but return to the sin hating myself every moment. I fear Abba Father. I fear His judgement greatly.Hell terrifies me evidently not enough because i am the double hearted kind James and King David warned about. I am Capricorn. Satans sign. This sickens and mortifies me. Child of satan /tribe of Benjamin . I just wonder if my name has been blotted out from the Book of life already. Please pray for my eternal soul!
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Bless yer heart. God LOVES you (and me) faults, stumblings n' all. Do as David did. GO to our Father, our Abba, for He is gracious and just as the father with the prodigal son (dragging all his defeatedness with him) RAN TO him. So is our Abba with us. He KNOWS our frame. GO to Him. In the meantime, i'm lifting you to our gracious Abba, Who is mighty to pour out His grace onto us. You are His child, a beloved son of the Most High God. GO to Him brother.
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I am not saying drugs are right,but you view as sin sorcery and unworthy to God is the sourse of your bondage.
You have a addiction it is a illness and God will heal you by faith.
Blaming your self does not help,yes we should do our best to keep from sin, but you have a physical need as well when you withdrawal. Find a faith based center to help that treats drug habits.
People demonize others for drugs,what they need to understand is some people have a allergic
Reaction to them that greatly increases the chance for addiction. Kicking your self only causes fear and guilt. Seek Christ for you healing , stop speaking death start speaking victory.
Don't let set backs ,set you back repent keep believing you will win through Christ.
Praying for you its going to be alright God bless.
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I will pray for you, my friend. Take it one day at a time. Please seek help from your church family and medical help. You can kick this, if you really want to, and with God's help. I cannot relate to the severity of your addiction, but others have tread your path, so it CAN be done! I pray that you will seek help from your church and medical facilities, and that God will bless you with the strength to fight this! Put it in his hands.
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don't believe what horoscopes tell you. you are not a child of the devil christ reedemed you and bought you. let his grace help you through this. let him break the bondage in your life by surrenduring in spirit and then finally your body will be able to cope and surrender too. He loves you and never gives up on you so don't believe the lies. he will help you throught this. he loves that you seek his help.
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Realizing that this thread has been around for a while, I hope the prayers of those who have posted & prayers elsewhere have been part of a deliverance by the Lord from your torment. It is always good to pray so may I worthily pray towards your salvation & well being while knowing my own sin.
Another thing to consider is that although you have been under much duress, you may well be becoming saved in your repentance to the Lord amidst much suffering. I would think that while an addiction is something that needs to be seriously addressed, it does not mean your penitence you have expressed is in vain.
Another thing to consider is that although you have been under much duress, you may well be becoming saved in your repentance to the Lord amidst much suffering. I would think that while an addiction is something that needs to be seriously addressed, it does not mean your penitence you have expressed is in vain.
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Hello Brother,
Listen. I have been in your shoes. I spent years of my life chained to cocaine and alcohol in a very intense way. As you are feeling now, I feel I lost those years of my life. Here's the good news. ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE THROUGH CHRIST!!! He freed me, and HE can free you. Keep praying and doors will open to help. I promise. But be proactive. Talk to whoever you can find at your local church or center. There are so many organizations who want to help. Just keep your eyes peeled and your ears open. Help will present itself. The power of prayer is truly amazing. Keep at it. God saved my life from drugs and alcohol. He saved me from getting killed in Afghanistan. And then He saved my mother's life when I got back. You can read more about my testimony on this site. But please don't give up hope, and drop all the talk about Satan. You are a child of the most high GOD, and HE wants to help. But you have to work with him. Know that I am praying for you. You are absolutely worthy of Gods love and redemption. And you can be free. I believe it in my heart...and I know it from experience. Praise the Lord Abba father who can help with all things! Take the first steps and HE will help with the rest. Your Friend in Christ, Ryan
Listen. I have been in your shoes. I spent years of my life chained to cocaine and alcohol in a very intense way. As you are feeling now, I feel I lost those years of my life. Here's the good news. ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE THROUGH CHRIST!!! He freed me, and HE can free you. Keep praying and doors will open to help. I promise. But be proactive. Talk to whoever you can find at your local church or center. There are so many organizations who want to help. Just keep your eyes peeled and your ears open. Help will present itself. The power of prayer is truly amazing. Keep at it. God saved my life from drugs and alcohol. He saved me from getting killed in Afghanistan. And then He saved my mother's life when I got back. You can read more about my testimony on this site. But please don't give up hope, and drop all the talk about Satan. You are a child of the most high GOD, and HE wants to help. But you have to work with him. Know that I am praying for you. You are absolutely worthy of Gods love and redemption. And you can be free. I believe it in my heart...and I know it from experience. Praise the Lord Abba father who can help with all things! Take the first steps and HE will help with the rest. Your Friend in Christ, Ryan
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