Hello All
Recently, I had researched things on the reprobate mind. It has really had my anxiety into overdrive. The thought that one's salvation can be eternally lost and given up just has me incredibly anxious. I never, ever want to become a reprobate, but with my intrusive thoughts and anxiety, I am terrified that I could become one. Recently, I had another intrusive thought where I almost renounced my faith and the guilt and fear were so debilitating that I went into my car and cried. I pray that God does not hand me over to a reprobate mind. I still believe in Christ and his saving grace, I still read my bible, and hold on to the word. Does anyone know the signs of a reprobate, please I am very fearful right now?
Well I was listening to a pastor named Herman murry on FGHT Dallas on youtube and he gave a personal encountor of someone with such a mind.
It was a lady that was used by God and would lay hands and saw miracles and such but one day slept with uh... a minister I think it was and she felt as if something sucked the holy spirit right out of her. IDR much after that but she says she's on the alter seeking God and last one there but never hears anything or whatever.
So Pastor Herman Murry said he could pray for her and he did real hard, but then he heard God say stop. HE stopped and all he heard her saying was "uhu" "yep", and she hung up.
There you have it perfect example there, when a person just has no mind to seek God anymore and can't even hear from him. Also backsliding is described in the bible as being a slow process so don't worry... you get warnings anyway if you start to regress. The bible says warning cometh before destruction.
Here is a biblical example also which shows like man it takes a lot to get there and it's a choice you make once you reject God and get far enough.
Romans 1 kjv
20 For the invisible things of him from the creation of the world are clearly seen, being understood by the things that are made, even his eternal power and Godhead; so that they are without excuse:
21 Because that, when they knew God, they glorified him not as God, neither were thankful; but became vain in their imaginations, and their foolish heart was darkened.
22 Professing themselves to be wise, they became fools,
23 And
changed the glory of the uncorruptible God into an image made like to corruptible man, and to birds, and fourfooted beasts, and creeping things.
24 Wherefore
God also gave them up to uncleanness through the lusts of their own hearts, to dishonour their own bodies between themselves:
25 Who changed the truth of God into a lie, and worshipped and served the creature more than the Creator, who is blessed for ever. Amen.
26 For this cause
God gave them up unto vile affections: for even their women did change the natural use into that which is against nature:
27
And likewise also the men, leaving the natural use of the woman, burned in their lust one toward another; men with men working that which is unseemly, and receiving in themselves that recompence of their error which was meet.
28 And even as they did not like to retain God in their knowledge,
God gave them over to a reprobate mind, to do those things which are not convenient;
Comment: there you have it as you can see... this isn't something you just fall into it takes time to reach the reprobate status all the way in verse 28, so just stay focused and you're fine.
Another similar example
Jeremiah 16: 13 Therefore will I cast you out of this land into a land that ye know not, neither ye nor your fathers; and there shall ye serve other gods day and night; where I will not shew you favour.
Comment: If you ever have read Jeremiah or take time to read it some you will God gave these people tons of chances before they ended up serving other gods and losing his favor. To where they themselves no longer even looked towards God.
Conclusion: In the end don't worry, if you in your mind have a mind to keep seeking God then that's a sign you're yeah...not in a reprobate or real dark state of mind. Now honestly I would pray for that boldness those followers of christ had in acts 4, you can't fear what God wants you to fight against. You can't fear the demonic and fear falling...and remember...
(I highly recommend putting this scripture to memory, it's great and helps push you).
Jude 24-25King James Version (KJV)
24 Now unto him that is able to keep you from falling, and to present you faultless before the presence of his glory with exceeding joy,
25 To the only wise God our Saviour, be glory and majesty, dominion and power, both now and ever. Amen.