I've posted here a few times and just wanted to give some encouragement to those struggling. I can remember when it seemed like I would never stop hurting myself, like it was hopeless.
I started cutting when I was 14. By the time I was 18 it was a daily thing, somtimes multiple times. Suicide seemd like it was always in the back of my mind. I was bulimic. Etc etc.
I started therapy at 18. I struggled a lot. Thankfully my therapist is WONDERFUL and a christian therapist. Its been a long hard road and there have been times I have wanted to quit....times I didn't have a whole lot of faith in myself, I didn't think I could quit or that I deserved to quit.
I'm getting ready to turn 22 and am still in therapy with the same wonderful therapist. I still slip up occasionally but its usually months in between and actually lately I haven't even had the urge to do it. I've learned many new coping skills. I'm still working through the underlying issues but am making great progress. I haven't had any binging/purging since october! Suicide is something I never think about, I made my mind up that life is worth it and that I will fight through whatever comes my way.
My relationship with God is better than it has ever been. 4 years ago I was doubting God, researching other religions etc. And now my faith has never been so strong.
I was very ashamed of my scars for awhile but now I am proud of them. My battle scars. I wish I didn't have them but I do. Yet in a strange way I am proud of them. because I am a survivor.
I just wanted to share my story because I remember oh so well thinking there was no hope for me, that I would never get better. And when it seems like you will never find the light in the darkness....God is there...even when you don't think He is.
I started cutting when I was 14. By the time I was 18 it was a daily thing, somtimes multiple times. Suicide seemd like it was always in the back of my mind. I was bulimic. Etc etc.
I started therapy at 18. I struggled a lot. Thankfully my therapist is WONDERFUL and a christian therapist. Its been a long hard road and there have been times I have wanted to quit....times I didn't have a whole lot of faith in myself, I didn't think I could quit or that I deserved to quit.
I'm getting ready to turn 22 and am still in therapy with the same wonderful therapist. I still slip up occasionally but its usually months in between and actually lately I haven't even had the urge to do it. I've learned many new coping skills. I'm still working through the underlying issues but am making great progress. I haven't had any binging/purging since october! Suicide is something I never think about, I made my mind up that life is worth it and that I will fight through whatever comes my way.
My relationship with God is better than it has ever been. 4 years ago I was doubting God, researching other religions etc. And now my faith has never been so strong.
I was very ashamed of my scars for awhile but now I am proud of them. My battle scars. I wish I didn't have them but I do. Yet in a strange way I am proud of them. because I am a survivor.
I just wanted to share my story because I remember oh so well thinking there was no hope for me, that I would never get better. And when it seems like you will never find the light in the darkness....God is there...even when you don't think He is.
