- Nov 27, 2020
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Hey all, I’m Tania, 27 years old.
I have struggled with anxiety and depression for as long as I can remember. I had started antidepressants at age 13 and have been on some kind of medication since.
I have been hospitalized twice for my mental health, both of which, in hindsight, I have realized I could feel God telling me to get help as certain urges grew stronger and as I made plans. I am alive because I listened to the intuition to check myself in to ensure my safety.
Before my second hospitalization, I had been struggling a lot with my faith for years, my entire life I have had difficulty, I always felt like I was trying to ask for help and that God “wasn’t listening to me” or “didn’t want to help me.” I felt like I was never going to be able to feel alive. I continued to convince myself that I was just bad at existing.
After my last hospitalization in August 2019, I have had faith and hope and light start to trickle in. I had been diagnosed with Bipolar II Disorder in March of this year, and started mood stabilizers on top of my 2 antidepressants, and my faith has continued to grow and grow since.
I was wondering if anyone else has had the experience of “mood stabilization” or treatment assisting in growing their faith? Or helped them to open their eyes to God’s love?
I know now that all the things I have been through were necessary to get me here and make me who I am. I am confident that God has given me this diagnosis as an answer. I look back and am in awe at the things I was so blind to, the hospital that I checked myself into both times has a statue of Jesus out front with open arms, I have felt the love of God in him urging me to stay alive and keep trying and giving me answers when I was almost ready to give up.
I have struggled with anxiety and depression for as long as I can remember. I had started antidepressants at age 13 and have been on some kind of medication since.
I have been hospitalized twice for my mental health, both of which, in hindsight, I have realized I could feel God telling me to get help as certain urges grew stronger and as I made plans. I am alive because I listened to the intuition to check myself in to ensure my safety.
Before my second hospitalization, I had been struggling a lot with my faith for years, my entire life I have had difficulty, I always felt like I was trying to ask for help and that God “wasn’t listening to me” or “didn’t want to help me.” I felt like I was never going to be able to feel alive. I continued to convince myself that I was just bad at existing.
After my last hospitalization in August 2019, I have had faith and hope and light start to trickle in. I had been diagnosed with Bipolar II Disorder in March of this year, and started mood stabilizers on top of my 2 antidepressants, and my faith has continued to grow and grow since.
I was wondering if anyone else has had the experience of “mood stabilization” or treatment assisting in growing their faith? Or helped them to open their eyes to God’s love?
I know now that all the things I have been through were necessary to get me here and make me who I am. I am confident that God has given me this diagnosis as an answer. I look back and am in awe at the things I was so blind to, the hospital that I checked myself into both times has a statue of Jesus out front with open arms, I have felt the love of God in him urging me to stay alive and keep trying and giving me answers when I was almost ready to give up.