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~....well we got back to Medjugorje, and at some point I asked if I could see Mary, but I did not want her to be hurt, by us sinner types, nor did I want her to go out of her way. She appeard to me in a Mass. A catholic Mass, but in the way I always wanted to see her. I always wanted to know how she looked when she was older. After it was done, even today I still have too many emotions to say much, but just like any mother then, she told me something wordlessly. It was in the fabric of her coat. She described what sin was to me, using that fabric as for her to get to me, she had to go by hundreds of people all less perfect than she. I knew this. I did not want her to do that. She did anyway. She gifted herself to me, but in the way I always wanted. Just like a loving mother would.
19 1/2 months later, my life was pefect i thought. Yes I still missed God terribly after seeing him, and I had many excursions and disapointments, as I was sure he would not leave me on earth this long after seeing Him. I was slowly losing it. Maybe my heart was breaking. You see, I fell in love with God, instantly when I say Him. At least that is what I think happened.
Looking over to that place where he was now, I said to him: "You can't leave me like this. You can't" He did. "Eighteen months. Eighteen months. I can stand it that long." In eighteen months I wen to church, sure that he would take me our of here. Off from earth. It didn't happen.
Then one day I had a Jesus and Mary encounter, in my dining room. Next in 19 months or so, I am talking to Jesus, again in my dining room. He is so pleased with what I tell him that I can feel his pleasure in his stomache on one side. That day, my life was set to me. I did not want eternal life. I had told him that. That is what pleased him. He had already known I did not want eternal life for three and a half years now. I just never knew that he knew. I asked for a few favors, and I asked if I could keep working for God as it was too miuch fun, while I awaited my ceassing to exist. That is one of the things I asked of him. I wanted to merely cease to exist, like God says he can do, destroy both body and sould in heaven. I wanted that. I ddi now want eternal life. I hoped God granted that. I had no feelings one way or another. I wanted nothing for my time on earth that had to do with anything that I did right. "Just give it away" I also asked to be forgiven for anything I had done wrong, while soon knowing what I have done wrong is far greater than anything I have done right, so I almost felt and aksed for mercy on those items. Now feeling horrible about my time on earth and forever, my life was no set.
I knew, preciselly how my life was going to go, until the day, I ceased to exist. I hoped it could be painless, the ceasing to exist, but I told Jesus that I would understand if could not be. I was set. I loved my life then. It was serene. I knew as I said, exactly the way my life would be till the day, I ceased to exist. I would be allowed to work for God, and then one day, nothing.
About a month later, I am in my dining room again. The two pictures, now move, are on top of the cabinet. The left one is of Mary, the right one is of Jesus. These are always directly in front of me. It is about 2:30 in the afternoon. I am kneeling down. It is the 3:00 Adoration hour. It is something I am allowd to do. God the Father approaches from out in the distance. At first I didn't know it was him. I just felt something approaching. Soon it was him. He came closer and closer. Every consiousness is gone but him I am not even sure now if my ceiling was there then. I see the clouds, the lower layer is pushed aside. They are all piled up, around the edges. A thinner layer of clouds is just above. I can see the lights of God The Father, as they penetrate these clouds. It is an acitive color. he is moving or his colors are ever dancing. I don't know. I can totally feel Him. He is unmistakeable. Now I have worked with and for him for many years. Never has he approached me in all his power, all his regalness. This is way different. I wait. A person pops up out of the left hand side, my left, of the rolled up layer of clouds. i am upset. Internally I say outloud but internally: " What is he talking for. Who is he. He should not be talking. He has been saying words. I rembered them all. When my internal objections were over, I continued to listen. When he was done. I was anything but, anything but, concerned. Me. Me. He is asking me. There are all these more beautiful girsls in the world and he is asking me. This is not time for flattery. I pushed that asside. Humility. This will require infinite humility. (I didn't know if I had that.) I wonder how I feel about him. I checked my feelings. Not enough came back. My life has been horrible with relationships. I can' t hut him. I wonder if he knows what I am thinking. Must block all thoughts. Feel can you love this guy enough. Nothing comes back thatg is certain. I don't want him to go away. This is for eternity. I have to be right. I cannot hurt him for eteni....... so on and so forth. He leaves. I am startled. Said to me in departing is this: "I would not have asked you if you were not up to it" Up to it? Up to it? Up to wha? Humility? What. He is gone. I know nothing except this particular question will be asked of me only three times. What ever my answer is, that will be it.
Day two arrives. I am set. He comes. That angel who I later found out was Gabriel after this was all over starts to speak. Word for word and acttion for action I do exactly what I did on day one, only the fact that this other guy is talking to me, that no longer bothers me. Day three comes. Whatever I planned to say, if I planned to say something, it was lost almost instantly, when Gabriel started to speak for God The Father again. (I already knew how that worked. I have know for more than a year now. So later that did not bother me). Part way into those words a no is heard by me in my head. It is not a real no. A little panicked maybe. "I don't know what I am going to say. I don't. I say to myself in my internal voice." The last words are comiing. I knew something about God though. I knew something. When the words were finished YES! came out of my mouth. Instantly hundreds to thousands to millions maybe of voices started in. Everyone who was silent now started to talk. Katerina has just said YES! She has just said yes to God The Father. To his question of : Will you marry me. That occurred in the fall of 2007. Later I talked of this, and my command to get a spiritual director happenened. In a fleece type of test issued to me, even the Catholic Church has a verification this is all true. Because I am transgendered and old, the Psychologist assigned to me essentially said, yes it is true, as you are no form of mental pathology, a medical mystic for real, and we have gotten corroborations from others on you, that indeed you are a Christian Mystic, now here is paperwork to protect you from all those who would hurt you, calling you not a female in a male body, and those that would say, you are mentally ill rather than a real mystic.~
Those are the high points of one of my experiences.
LOVE and love,
...Katerina, the name He called me by one day, and the name I use and love.
Now I fully expect to be called a lot of bad things for what I have just said. There are two here who will now probably drive me out of here verbally. You asked TheBaard. That is my God Story, except, later I found out that I was totally prepared to understand that question. I was prepared for more than thirty years. I had to understand that question, or how could I answer it accurately.
...Katie., He, They and ..... .
And I am sorry, that there are spelling errors here, I am totally exhausted and need a break.
Yep, that's GIBBERISH. As far as MY opinion is concerned. Either God IS God or He is not. And in order to BE God, He MUST be who He SAYS He IS. And one of the attributes of GOD is that He cannot DIE. So that means that the Son CANNOT BE God. Doesn't take 'rocket science' to figure that one out. It just doesn't AGREE with what you WANT to believe.
You have already ADMITTED that you DO NOT believe in the Bible. Yet you choose to TOY with scripture as if it is merely a bunch of SENTENCES you can manipulate in any manner that FITS what you want to believe. If you don't believe in the Bible, WHY would you QUOTE 'scripture'?
When scripture offers that God can do ALL things. That is NOT a statement that He can DO 'anything' that would cause Him to CEASE to be GOD. Otherwise He is not God to begin with. That's the manner in which SATAN operates. He IS the 'Father of LIES' and therefore the "Father of DECEPTION". It is DECEPTION to even indicate that the scripture offers in any LITERAL sense that God can DO 'all things'. If that's true, then He could BE a 'murderer'. A rapist. A LIAR. ALL those "things" that we SEE in the DECEIVER.
So maybe that's the ANSWER to the question of HOW you are able to SEE things COMPLETELY different than myself. Perhaps we are speaking of TWO DIFFERENT 'Gods'. You SAY that Satan is NOT the 'god of this world'. I KNOW that he IS. One of us is COMPLETELY WRONG. I believe that you have proven YOURSELF over and over. You DO NOT believe in the SAME GOD that I DO. If we DID believe in the SAME God, we would have the SAME BELIEFS in that GOD. Since our beliefs are practically the OPPOSITE, the obvious answer is that we are NOT speaking of the SAME God. I defend the God revealed in the Bible. You say you don't BELIEVE in the Bible. So that ought to be ENOUGH for ANYONE to clearly see the TRUTH.
I hope that you really understood what you were attempting to say. I don't have a CLUE. I THINK you were accusing me of ACTING like Jesus is God. If so, you are more foolish than I thought you were. If not, then I have NO IDEA what you are talking about.
Language means NOTHING if one tries to read a STORY one line at a time. They will NEVER understand the MESSAGE, (if there is one). Just a bunch of lines of WORDS.
You are trying to discuss this issue with someone that is TRYING their best to keep things simple enough for a CHILD to understand. But it seems that MOST of what I have offered is either NOT being comprehended, or DENIED for some other reason.
So maybe you DO worship a God that CAN do 'all things'. And maybe that is why neither of us can come to agreement of exactly WHO or WHAT God IS. For IF your God can do ANY of the things I listed above, he is NOT the SAME God I'm talking about.
You have mistaken me for someone that you are capable of TOYING with. You can't. You only fool yourself when you begin to THINK that I am here just typing USELESS words. There is POWER in the things that I say and anyone that has an INKLING of the truth within their hearts can FEEL it, actually KNOW it. The Spirit RECOGNIZES The Spirit. So if my words sound hollow or uninspired, I would offer that it's not because they ARE, it's because of an inability to HEAR what I'm saying. Or maybe even an outright OFFENSE to what I offer. I know where such influence STEMS from. Satan hates the TRUTH almost as much as He hates God's Son.
Hi,Too precious...
Thank you for sharing with me, Katie.
What did Jesus say when asked to reveal the father?
So God was speaking metaphorically when He said He can do all things, but literally when He said He can't die? When Jesus speaks of those who believe in Him that they shall not die, isn't He talking about the second death? So maybe God can die the first death but not the second one. How should I know? (Even if I think I do.)
I believe my average opinion on this matter--it frequently changes to degrees--is that the Bible is best compared to a jury's evidence packet about Christ, something that we are justified in thinking about Jesus based on, but not as if it were always literally or infallibly true.
I don't happen to believe that God can make a rock He can't lift, or make 2 + 2 = 5, or whatever. But I was pointing out there's a passage in scripture that seems to contradict yours. On the other hand, maybe it's true that God is able to murder, rape, and lie, but has chosen not to, and since His decision takes place in eternity, it means that He has an absolutely indelibly trustworthy character. I didn't think you'd end up insinuating that Satan is tricking me or trying to get me to trick others or something, but oh well.
Oh no, I'm pretty sure I kinda believe in a God no one has ever believed in before, except maybe some obscure Hindus or who knows who. Or Thomas Aquinas on an off-day wondering why an infinite God would not exist as an infinite number of Persons. Or, just maybe, Immanuel Kant and Plato and perhaps (on a good day) Hannah Arendt and John Rawls and so many men and women of very valiant spirit who have defended the beauty of good against the despite of evil over the ages, alongside the image of Christ at work in our history. But you confine your judgments to a single book, as if an infinite God would completely represent all of Himself in only one set of pages of things written in one slight fraction of the world's history.
Well, besides saying God should be the only one Who the letters "G" and "o" and "d" next to each other in that order ought to be applied to, and the only one of whom we have a metaphysical belief that He only is the eternal creator of the world, and that as only the Father, what does your belief that the Father is "greater" than the Son even amount to? I doubt you'd get very far using only scriptures where Jesus mentions learning from or otherwise being seemingly subordinate to the Father.
Well, I do think the Bible has a total message. I think it's very interesting and subtle at various points, like a moral maze as it goes.
Apparently there's an obscure mathematical proof of an infinite number of types of infinity, and this is supposed to be easy enough for four-year-olds to understand. So what is the limit when it comes to arguing within the limits of children's reasoning skills?
So you're abusing the word "can" to accuse me of Satanism! For Pete's sake, that's not even close to fair. Sometimes we say that so-and-so couldn't ever hurt a kitten or something, but this is not meant to imply the inability to, only the lack of a motive to. Now I have argued that God created us in the wrong way, maybe, and that's the deeper original sin, as it were, but I press my Trinitarianism when it comes to this point, because then the Son and the Spirit are seen as the form of God redeemed of the wrong done by the Father. Thus even though the Father is not morally perfect of Himself, we ought to love Him and forgive Him by ceasing to sin ourselves. (Then so as the Father's substantial aseity transfers through the Son to the Spirit, the Spirit's moral aseity transfers through the Son to the Father, and all three are perfect, but the Father's perfection depends on the Son's just as the Son's substance depends on the Father.)
Mormon missionaries said similar kinds of things to me.
Katerinah is a guy. That explains a lot. since TheBarrd has me on iggy, she ain't gonna know that. Nobody tell her.
(ISR)
20So then, by their fruits you shall know them
21Not everyone who says to Me, Master, Master, shall enter into the reign of the heavens, but he who is doing the desire of My Father in the heavens.
22Many shall say to Me in that day, Master, Master, have we not prophesied in Your Name, and cast out demons in Your Name, and done many mighty works in Your Name?
23And then I shall declare to them, I never knew you, depart from Me, you who work lawlessness!
22But you have drawn near to Mount Tsiyon and to the city of the living Elohim, to the heavenly Yerushalayim, to myriads of messengers,
23to the entire gathering and assembly of the first-born having been enrolled in heaven, and to Elohim the Judge of all, and to the spirits of righteous men made perfect,
24and to יהושע the Mediatora of a new covenant, and to the blood of sprinkling which speaks better than the blood of Heḇel.
3who being the brightness of the esteem and the exact representation of His substance, and sustaining all by the word of His power, having made a cleansing of our sins through Himself, sat down at the right hand of the Greatness on high,
What is beginning to slowly creep into my brain is that I have to just let insults go. Commenting on someone's insult , even minutely , only adds fuel to the fire. It's no fun to insult people if you can't get a rise out of them. So they just stop then.I tried to communicate with Katerinah and a couple of others here on this topic. They made it PERFECTLY clear that communication, (other than offering insult and insinuation), was NOT their intent. They did NOT want to discuss the TRUTH concerning 'trinity', just spread their ignorance, (and OTHER 'stuff').
So, with this in mind, it's pretty clear that to ATTEMPT to communicate with someone who doesn't WANT to communicate is a WASTED effort. And I'm not going to WASTE any more effort trying to SPEAK to those that refuse to even contemplate the TRUTH. Those that have chosen a path of ignorance aren't likely to CHANGE.
One is a transgendered MAN. Another states they don't even BELIEVE in the Bible. And the other, well, in my opinion, just another 'stooge' so far as 'trinity' is concerned. The first two I don't even think I NEED to point out the likelihood of EVERY seeking the TRUTH. A man that decided to become a WOMAN is SO confused as to the TRUTH of life itself will unlikely EVER listen to anything I have to offer. As far as I'm concerned, they may as well have been ONE of the crowd banging on Lot's door telling him to send out the ANGELS so that they could KNOW them.
A man that openly STATES that he does NOT believe in the Bible, well, obviously WE can NEVER come to any sort of mutual understanding.
And ignorance speaks for itself to anyone with their EYES opened enough to SEE.
And before anyone gets upset over my use of the word: ignorant, allow me to offer this: I am IGNORANT. So far as personal revelation of 'trinity', obviously God has seen fit to LEAVE me ignorant. I have receive NO such PERSONAL revelation. If anything, whatever revelation I have received concerning 'trinity' is that it is UTTERLY man made and doesn't exist in TRUTH.
I opened with some specific statements and questions. It is clear that no one that believes in 'trinity' LIKED them. So instead of trying to dispute what I offered with any EVIDENCE, instead they resorted to character attack and disruption as their method of dealing with it. As it USUALLY is when the subject is brought up.
This has certainly been a REVEALING experience to me. For offering the TRUTH, I have been accused of being 'someone else', a Muslim, PRIDEFUL, and a number of other things that were used in an attempt to create DIVERSION instead of discussion. Not to worry, it is a common tactic among the UNLEARNED when it comes to trying to promote their beliefs. Instead of discussing WHY one believes what they believe, they choose instead to attack anyone that points out the possible fallacy of their beliefs.
The RCC use to BURN people alive as a method of disruption. Fortunately they no longer have the POWER to do such things. Obviously God saw that it was TIME to end the suffering of His Saints and REMOVED such power from the irresponsible hands of those that FELT they could DO such things in the NAME of God's Son.
These THREE that chose to join this conversation obviously don't KNOW me. I noticed that those that DO know me didn't even comment, (not talking about you Duck). In the future, you KNOW me NOW.
So, as far as I'm concerned, I'm THROUGH with this thread. It served NO purpose other than to reveal the hearts of the few that chose to participate. I have been accused of NOT being NICE enough. So be it. If I must talk AROUND issues in order to be nice, or if I must sugar coat the truth in order to be NICE, or if I must pretend to be nothing other than "FULL OF LOVE" in order to be considered NICE, then I don't know if I even WANT to be considered 'nice' by those that demand such requirements of me.
Christ pulled out a whip and started swinging it when He witnessed the LIARS and CHEATS in His Father's house. I guess we shouldn't listen to Him either since SOME could call His behavior 'un-NICE'. Or when Paul threatened to return to Corinth with a ROD, we shouldn't listen to anything he offered either because he wasn't NICE enough.
It is MY belief that 'churches' TRYING to be 'nice' is what's WRONG with the present STATE of the 'church' RIGHT NOW. Instead of making efforts to PLEASE God, they have become pleasers of MEN in order to gain their trust and make merchandise of them. If I'm required to perpetuate lies and PRETEND to love others in order to be considered NICE, then I would RATHER be considered, by THESE: UN-nice.
I refuse to let this be PERSONAL. I understand how difficult it can be to recognize or accept that one's beliefs are FALSE. And I have witnessed MANY TIMES the extent to which one will go in order to HOLD on regardless. It pains me FOR others, rarely am "I" pained BY others. I TRY to maintain a sense of order in the threads I post, but that doesn't mean that I am easily offended. I have been accused of and called MUCH worse by more educated people so the comments that were made against me here were TRIVIAL in truth.
I didn't ASK anyone to LIKE me when I started this thread and I don't ask that anyone LIKE me any MORE now in my closing. I can ONLY HOPE that some of what I've offered is able to SINK in and MAYBE at some time in the future God will see FIT to water it and let it grow. If not, heck, I TRIED.
Blessings,
MEC