Hi everyone I'm new here.
I'm asking for advice about vows.
Some months ago I was in an emotional state and while praying I vowed to God that if he heals me from my various conditions I will renounce my parents, my house, videogames, anime and Japan. When I made them I wasn't fully aware on how vows works.
I kinda forgot about the vows, but was reminded when I reached Deuteronomy (I'm still reading through the bible).
So I searched online, and it seemed like you could repent the vow, I wasn't sure but I continue to play videogames.
After some days I heard a voice in my mind telling me "If you continue playing videogames, I will send a disgrace upon you". So I replied "who are you?", and the voice said "I am God, your creator".
So from that time I stopped completely playing videogames.
After some days while in prayer I said that I didn't want to renounce all those things and that I won't be able to fulfill them.
The next day it happened to me something bad concerning my health, something specific that has really low probability to happen that I think it's a kind of punishment from God.
I was so in a bad state that i confirmed my vows by vowing again kinda the same thing.
The parents and house part is really foolish, there is a reason I vowed to renounce them but it's hard to explain.
Videogames and anime are something that I've always enjoyed, especially videogames. I'm really having hard times seeing myself quitting them completely, even because it's something I enjoy doing with my friends.
Regarding the Japan part, I've always loved Japan, to the point that I've majored Japanese language at university so renouncing Japan it's really hard and I fear it will deeply affect my carrer since my studies. I've put a lot of effort in learning the language, I feel desperate because I vowed in a very vague way.
I think I've ruined my life making those vows. I also think that they are hindering my relationship with Him. Do you guys think that God could set me free of this bondage? Can I break the vows and be forgiven?
Thanks in advance
I'm asking for advice about vows.
Some months ago I was in an emotional state and while praying I vowed to God that if he heals me from my various conditions I will renounce my parents, my house, videogames, anime and Japan. When I made them I wasn't fully aware on how vows works.
I kinda forgot about the vows, but was reminded when I reached Deuteronomy (I'm still reading through the bible).
So I searched online, and it seemed like you could repent the vow, I wasn't sure but I continue to play videogames.
After some days I heard a voice in my mind telling me "If you continue playing videogames, I will send a disgrace upon you". So I replied "who are you?", and the voice said "I am God, your creator".
So from that time I stopped completely playing videogames.
After some days while in prayer I said that I didn't want to renounce all those things and that I won't be able to fulfill them.
The next day it happened to me something bad concerning my health, something specific that has really low probability to happen that I think it's a kind of punishment from God.
I was so in a bad state that i confirmed my vows by vowing again kinda the same thing.
The parents and house part is really foolish, there is a reason I vowed to renounce them but it's hard to explain.
Videogames and anime are something that I've always enjoyed, especially videogames. I'm really having hard times seeing myself quitting them completely, even because it's something I enjoy doing with my friends.
Regarding the Japan part, I've always loved Japan, to the point that I've majored Japanese language at university so renouncing Japan it's really hard and I fear it will deeply affect my carrer since my studies. I've put a lot of effort in learning the language, I feel desperate because I vowed in a very vague way.
I think I've ruined my life making those vows. I also think that they are hindering my relationship with Him. Do you guys think that God could set me free of this bondage? Can I break the vows and be forgiven?
Thanks in advance