For a while now Ive been facing rejection from females, which I can usually handle, I'll feel abit down but then I'll muster up the confidence to try again. Recently I decided I'll give online a go and pretty much my early encounters have shredded my confidence and self esteem. My most recent escapade in the online dating world involved an awesome connection with a fellow christian girl. We built this great vibe, I had reason enough to be hopeful. Our connection was getting stronger with each message, each message was recieved with a hit of the butterflies accompanied by my inability to fight off daydreaming (yes, ive never had someone special in my life, it couldnt be helped). I was in a state of deliria, I could sense it, our conversations were leading towards a possible meetup (yay first date ever!!! Ok buddy settle down) but first we needed to exchange photos, derp, ofcourse silly me. She sent a message asking to see some photos of me, so I spent a good 15 minutes frantically scrolling through all my mug shots, hoping to find a good photo of myself. I eventually settled on 2 photos... select, upload, send bang. Feeling pretty relieved after such an arduous task, I nervously wait upon her approval and our eventual sorting out of first date. I started to notice that the response time after sending my photos was feeling a little longer than her previous messages. A few hours later... a day later.... a few days later and no reply. It was at this point in time I started to realise that maybe I am too physically unattractive to find a female companion. I started reflecting on all my rejections and my confidence and self esteem which was pretty high a few days ago, has all but been reduced to rubble. I was feeling very discouraged but writing this rant has eased the pain tremendously and I thank anyone who took the time to read this. I'm slowly ridding my discouragement and I'm convincing myself that god has a very special person reserved for me and that my time will come. Once again thankyou, and love you all, have a blesesed day.