PTSD and depression...etc

[kala83]

so in the last few months, I made the decision to peruse working on trauma based therapy from my regular therapist, I have other mental illnesses and I did not think pursuing this was a big deal.

but I was wrong...I found that dealing with this was straining on my mental and physical energy.

I did not wish to do so but I put myself in a position where I stopped going to the place I was working.
Which frankly felt like the hardest thing I have had to do to date.

I wanted soo deeply to keep this job...but I had to be flat out honest that. I just could not do it and do the therapy I needed or the amount of therapy I needed. Not to mention...with the PTSD at times it makes my other disorders, sometimes flare up and be at risk also.
My anger and manic moments from my bipolar have become worse...lately, and I have struggled more as of recently with my depression.

but I have started going back to church more and doing daily devotionals and I have already noticed a great change in my attitude

I have a lot of things going on right now in my life I could focus on and have a negative outlook on it. The small amounts of clutter I have in my house and disorganization that builds up to small amounts of hoarding, my lack of social skills due probably being autistic as well as just not being aware of it for a long time and not doing something about it a long time ago.

My boyfriend moving out and adjusting to all that. The hard relationship I have with my own mother and it bordering some days on being emotionally abusive on either one of our parts.

but I am determined that no matter how long I have to do this, no matter how hard it might get. I have to think positively about things, I give to praise for the little thing I do have in my life and I will receive more blessings for my positive attitude.

but if lol people can offer up prayers, also that would be good and helpful as well.

 

[melody123]

Hi Kala. Thanks for sharing, you are not alone. I've struggled with some of the same things. I also had ptsd, and then chronic fatigue for a long time. Know my prayers are going out for you! It's wonderful to hear you are finding comfort and strength in your daily devotionals and church.

(Hugs)


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[ToBeBlessed]

I will be praying for you.

 

[Happy to help]

hello! I just want to say you're doing the right thing by sharing your feelings. It relieves your stress and emotions. The world today is a rough place. But you're not alone! Don't ever feel singled out. Count your blessings. From every plate of food you eat to every time you smile. For every good thing comes from god. And remember that god will never give you something that he does not think you can handle. He knows you better then you! So when times seem dark keep thinking of the light at the end of the tunnel, because their is always a light at the end. Stay strong and stay blessed. My prayer for you is to be strong in faith.

 

[kala83]

I have found a lot of healing in going to church more and going to classes from church...I certainly feel blessed and grateful that I can...I get help with all this and take a break for myself.