Thanks to all who posted it means a lot to me...i just wish i could build others up and help them grow..i like doing things for other people..
This is going to be a small testamony - no prophecy I hope that's fine here as well
I was and to a certain extent still am in the same situation you are in right now. I've always been a Christian but grew totally cold because I was never told that your Christian walk can be personal, can be more than reading a book and obeying rules. Well I heard one day a sermon and that pastor just told something what he had experienced with the lord (I think he just said that the lord told him something or so *g*). I was struck. I mean that person said, that we can experience god on a personal day by day basis - I was consumed by a strong longing to go after the lord. I started getting tapes of those who experience those things and started pressing into the lord.
About 5 months later I had learned, that god can do everything and wants to do everything in order to make people well. I started having a strong desire, to help everybody who was broken. Whenever I read a post in a forum or saw a person that had a problem I thought "Oh man I wanna help them. How easy would it be - a quick word of the lord, laying on of hands, power of god and healed they are". Sadly enough I was too insecure ever to do anything like that because I never experienced anybody being healed through me, I had never heard god's voice up to that point (or was still very insecure at that time at discerning) and never ever even told anyone about the lord. What I did was I kept growing. I listened to sermons, read in the bible (way too little), prayed, praised the lord, went to church and bible studies.
Today I've experienced several things with the lord and he used me a couple of times to help others. In Joyce Meyers words "I'm not where I want to be but THANK GOD I'm not where I used to be"
What I want to say is that I believe that we grow into the lord and in the lord. With growth he works more and more through us.
What you can do is:
- Press into the lord by prayer, worship, reading THE book, reading other books and listening to sermons, fellowship with others
- practise and read in the bible about the things you want to be used in by the lord (i.e. prophecy)
- Don't be such a coward like I am (Working on that) and step out there. You can pray for people (For instance I started by praying for other Christians even Christian family members.)
Matthew 7, 7 Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you. 8 For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And to everyone who knocks, the door will be opened.
I can tell you it works ;-)