- Oct 1, 2018
- 12
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- Country
- United States
- Faith
- Pentecostal
- Marital Status
- Married
I have drifted from God. I once could worship, I had joy and I had personal freedom. Over the last several years, life circumstances have brought me down. I have a lot of anger and bitterness which has contributed to me finding myself where I am now. I am Pentecostal and my belief has not changed. However, I have become distant from God and very jaded towards the church (that I helped found). I had a son that passed away just over 2 years ago at the age of 3 due to a genetic disorder. I have a lot of hurt. I feel like I am totally alone in my loss (aside from my family). The other leaders in our church seem to not really care about the hurt I carry due to our tragedy. I have no one else to talk to that can really relate to what it is like as a father that has lost a child. people tell me that they are there if I need to talk but it does not seem sincere. In church I feel so bound that I no longer want to attend because I feel like the only reason that i am there is to work. I no longer find joy in being there. I'm not sure where to go from here. I just know God has to intervene. I feel my heart is turning to stone.