Seems like an everyday struggle here in my home! It's like satan has entered into my husband and just keeps, trying to drag me down. As hard as it is, its hard not to hurt in a time like this. I give all that I have over to God, and go and pray for His healing within my home! I pray for peace and I pray for happiness, I pray alot for my husband..Satan constantly use's my husband by using him to call me stupid, and curse me constantly, and saying things to really hurt me! Sometimes he even use's him by distanting my husband from me, when I need my husbands affection the most! I am trying so hard to be the Christian that God wants me to be! I sometimes feel like giving up and moving on, with my children so we don't have to put up with the verbal, social, and emotional abuse. I sometimes get mad, and I try so hard not too. When he says things to hurt me and call me stupid, he really hurts me alot! I always tell him I am not. Sometimes I get mad and say things out of hurt, which only makes him say worse things to me! I do not mean too, but I hurt so much. He can't even touch me like a husband should, with out wrestling, and most of the time hurting me! I tell him that I do not like how he treats me, or how he shows me he loves me! He just tells me, to deal with it...and calls me a winnie... I cry over this kind of abuse, constantly. What hurts me the most is when, I want to be told I'm loved I ask him does he love me, and he says sometimes! I stay with him cause, he's my husband, and I feel until God shows me that he does not want me to go through this anymore, I have to stay. I do not know what to do! I need your prayers for my husband and for me. I ask you to plz pray for me strength and healing. I have been under so much stress lately, that I have put on like 15lbs. in two months. My stomach constantly hurts me, and I am alot happier when my husband is at work. Thats the only time I free like I do not have to watch my everylittle move. When he's here, when he wants the TV ,we have to give it up. If we are in the middle of a a TV show. When he wants everyone to be quite, we better be quite. Or he will hollor at us, Me and the kids. I feel like I am in a prision in my own home, when he's around! I know this is not the kind of marriage God intends a couple to have! What do I do? I have been praying for the past year and half. He does not want to hear me talk about God. When I do , he tells me to shut up, and calls me a hypocrit. I try hard everyday to be what God wants me to be! A Wife, A mother of three. My husband should be so blessed, cause their are so many men out here in this world who would love to have awife like me! With all the stress around me, its really a wonder I have not ran from it all. I have been hanging on for some time now, I only pray that God will let me know soon, ( I'm patient I know He will in His own timing ) what he wants me to do! Maybe one of you are His Angels, maybe he can use one of you to help me! Plz pray for me...I normally hate to talk about my problems, and I know that is called pride on my part,
( I ask God to forgive me ) I do from time to time. I'd rather think of others first and help them, than constrate on my own problems here at home. Only because I know I can not change my husband. He has to be willing to allow God to change Him. I pray that God either changes my husband, or God will deliever me and my children from this, broken home, that is filled with so much hurt... that is like a prision... may His will be done and contuine to use me to be, a guiding light to others. In Jesus name I ask and pray, amen
Thank you and God bless you all for your prayers, ~ Angelface ~ :angel:
( I ask God to forgive me ) I do from time to time. I'd rather think of others first and help them, than constrate on my own problems here at home. Only because I know I can not change my husband. He has to be willing to allow God to change Him. I pray that God either changes my husband, or God will deliever me and my children from this, broken home, that is filled with so much hurt... that is like a prision... may His will be done and contuine to use me to be, a guiding light to others. In Jesus name I ask and pray, amen
Thank you and God bless you all for your prayers, ~ Angelface ~ :angel:
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