- Sep 29, 2004
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i guess i feel guilty when i post a prayer request just for myself but im going through something hard and my own prayers arent working so im asking for yours as well
i have a really bad virus, it's causing me very bad headaches and all the other typical flu-like symptoms. i've been lying in bed trying to sleep for the last few hours but the virus, and a panic attack, won't let me, so I've only had about 4 hours sleep and I pretty much need 10 to feel normal. the fear of having panic attacks like i did in the past is making it even worse... i have had panic attacks that lasted for weeks/months without stopping, and I can't stand the thought of waiting that long again
on top of this, i have to go to the shops today and buy a present for my dad because it's his birthday, then I have to take the train to his girlfriend's place, have dinner with a few people and then sleep over there.
I just have absolutely no physical or mental energy to do this, but i have to. I'm not very good at "being there" because I have fears of talking on the phone and going out... and I promised him I'd go. my prayers arent working and i'm not feeling any better so i ask you to please pray that i somehow can do all of this today...i just dont know how i can hide all of this for 2 whole days and appear normal. I can't tell them what goes on with me because they don't understand. "Ignore it and it's not there" seems to be how they operate. i just want to stay home but it's complicated and isn't an option this time.
thank you
i have a really bad virus, it's causing me very bad headaches and all the other typical flu-like symptoms. i've been lying in bed trying to sleep for the last few hours but the virus, and a panic attack, won't let me, so I've only had about 4 hours sleep and I pretty much need 10 to feel normal. the fear of having panic attacks like i did in the past is making it even worse... i have had panic attacks that lasted for weeks/months without stopping, and I can't stand the thought of waiting that long again
on top of this, i have to go to the shops today and buy a present for my dad because it's his birthday, then I have to take the train to his girlfriend's place, have dinner with a few people and then sleep over there.
I just have absolutely no physical or mental energy to do this, but i have to. I'm not very good at "being there" because I have fears of talking on the phone and going out... and I promised him I'd go. my prayers arent working and i'm not feeling any better so i ask you to please pray that i somehow can do all of this today...i just dont know how i can hide all of this for 2 whole days and appear normal. I can't tell them what goes on with me because they don't understand. "Ignore it and it's not there" seems to be how they operate. i just want to stay home but it's complicated and isn't an option this time.
thank you