grace4ever,
Thank you for your post and prayers. I did check out the love dare book but find it difficult with no communication between us. I'm still trying. We did talk about the almost accident but I have to admit it doesnt make sense. It was like it didnt make sense to him either. All I can do is go off of what he did say and what I know to be true. I know he is the same age now as his father when he died. He said "i never expected to live this long". He also said "everytime i climb into that truck, i know it could be my last." So, death is definitely on his mind. There is baggage from his previous relationships too. Which means he is probably worried about me and what I'm doing. There is much more... I know he is hurting, confused and scared. I know he needs time and patience. I'm trying. I have dealt with depression and anxiety in my past. Since this started in january I've had mood swings and panic attacks. These are not helping things. I keep trying and keep praying.