I have an undiagnosed illness that I believe to be Lupus. I've gone through several tests but the doctors can't find anything. I've fallen into a deep depression/despair and struggle with suicidal ideation. My body is in pain and I struggle to breathe from the inflammation. Please pray for me, so that God may hear and help me heal if it is in his will to do so. I want to live and have a normal healthy life. I want to work and have a family someday. But I can't see that happening for me right now.