Post here when you feel like cutting

[LazeyWinde]

yeah this is gettting really hard

Keep trying Kath.

 

[MidnightJewel]

ugh...over a year since i stopped and i still feel like cutting...work was horrible, everyone in bad moods, i'm tired and stressed and lonely...sigh.

I don't want to start the cycle again.... =(

 

[flying_kiwifruit]

You can keep on goign kathleenmary. I have know you can bet this. :hugs:

 

[kathleenmary]

thnks guys.

 

[LazeyWinde]

ugh...over a year since i stopped and i still feel like cutting...work was horrible, everyone in bad moods, i'm tired and stressed and lonely...sigh.

I don't want to start the cycle again.... =(

Keep resisting it Midight! You don't have to hurt yourself.

 

[MidnightJewel]

i know i don't have to...i'm sure i can make it through again...its just so hard at the moment...

 

[beckybooiloveu]

hmmm... sigh... *goes of and cries*

 

[kathleenmary]

hmmm... sigh... *goes of and cries*

whats the matter?

 

[LazeyWinde]

hmmm... sigh... *goes of and cries*

*Hugs*

 

[HolyOne87]

hmmm... sigh... *goes of and cries*

*goes after and hugs becky*

 

[Arianna]

aww, try taking a walk to clear your head..maybe that'll help you with the urges.

*Hugs*

Thank you

xx

 

[kathleenmary]

im triggered =[

 

[secretx]

Really badly right now. My family's away, and my brother hasn't been home since they left. I don't know where he is. When I call him he says he's 'out' and hangs up on me .
So I've been home alone for about 5 days.
I worry all the time out of habit... like what if someone breaks in? I'll be all by myself.....

 

[Moana]

Keep me away from my blade.

 

[LazeyWinde]

Really badly right now. My family's away, and my brother hasn't been home since they left. I don't know where he is. When I call him he says he's 'out' and hangs up on me .
So I've been home alone for about 5 days.
I worry all the time out of habit... like what if someone breaks in? I'll be all by myself.....

*hugs*
I hate being home alone. Sometimes hanging out in chatrooms helps me a little. :-/

 

[LazeyWinde]

Don't know why but last night I slipped into one of my dark moods again. I painted my arm a bit last night... It's gone now but I think if I can easily keep from hurting myself if I don't have anything happen to trigger me until it passes.
So hopefully today'll go ok and I don't do anything I shouldn't if something goes wrong. :-/

 

[HolyOne87]

Don't know why but last night I slipped into one of my dark moods again. I painted my arm a bit last night... It's gone now but I think if I can easily keep from hurting myself if I don't have anything happen to trigger me until it passes.
So hopefully today'll go ok and I don't do anything I shouldn't if something goes wrong. :-/

i hope things will be good today for you lazeywinde...

 

[LazeyWinde]

i hope things will be good today for you lazeywinde...

Thanks. I haven't hurt myself yet.
I seem to have three stages as far as my self harming goes... First stage I'm more or less ok, not too anxious, angry or depressed. My second stage, my dark mood, seems to come out of nowhere. I'll be agitated, sometimes anxious, irritable, angry, depressed and think about hurting myself more than is healthy. When I decide to move anything I can use to hurt me away from myself. Then my third stage is when I'm triggered, mad as a hot place and have a hard time caring about anything and only want to satisfy the urge. That's when I usually wind up giving in. :-/ Sometimes something will really tick me off and I'll skip from stage one to three... My temper is not a good one.
But so far I've been going between stages one and two, not quite settling on either but at least I'm not triggered...

 

[TheMainException]

I really don't want to go down this road again. I've only ever had two episodes in my life really, they were intense, but I feel the times are becoming closer together. I'm starting to be afraid of nothing and of myself. I know I won't kill myself. The wish to be free of it all is much less than my fear of the mighty God. But I don't want to end up with another set of burns on my flesh. I also don't want to end up drinking too much nyquil. But if I don't drink it, I won't sleep. My anxiety will destroy me. I don't feel that the urge is enough to get help. I guess really I just don't want my parents to find out or my friends. I've been seeing a counselor, but still...it's not really helping much. I just can't hardly take it. I want to sleep for years. I want to wake up when the pain is gone. Some nights it just feel like too much. That's it. That's it. Please just send me a message, post a message...anything, anything at all. I'm so sick and tired of this. Just sick and tired of it all.

 

[LazeyWinde]

I really don't want to go down this road again. I've only ever had two episodes in my life really, they were intense, but I feel the times are becoming closer together. I'm starting to be afraid of nothing and of myself. I know I won't kill myself. The wish to be free of it all is much less than my fear of the mighty God. But I don't want to end up with another set of burns on my flesh. I also don't want to end up drinking too much nyquil. But if I don't drink it, I won't sleep. My anxiety will destroy me. I don't feel that the urge is enough to get help. I guess really I just don't want my parents to find out or my friends. I've been seeing a counselor, but still...it's not really helping much. I just can't hardly take it. I want to sleep for years. I want to wake up when the pain is gone. Some nights it just feel like too much. That's it. That's it. Please just send me a message, post a message...anything, anything at all. I'm so sick and tired of this. Just sick and tired of it all.

*Hugs* It takes a lot of courage to live with anxiety... I've had times where I've felt like my anxiety was gonna kill me. But it can get better... Just gotta hang in there I guess.