possibly pregnant ...

[forever changed]

This is really hard for me .. and this is still all in the air, so I hoping that this is a false alarm and that I will be able to learn and move on... but I am in real need of some encouragement, seeing as I do not want to confess it to the church just yet.

I am a minister at my church. I have been doing it for probably 5 years now. I have been saved for 7 years. Immediately God changed my life and I was never the same. He also gave me an annointing to teach His Word, and it has been an absolute joy. Many ppl have exalted me, which I continually warn them not to do, but many of them believe I can do no wrong. So this makes it really difficult.

For 7 years I have led a squeaky clean life. I have been in relationships, even engaged once and was never sexually immoral. However, I have now been in a relationship with a guy now for about 4 months and we have messed up big time. I cannot put into words the shame and guilt I feel. Nor the agonizing pain of knowing that I have ruined my witness and testimony. This alone can make me cry for hours. I know that I have sinned against God and Him only, and it breaks my heart.

Now for the really candid scenario, me and my boyfriend NEVER really had intercourse. We got to fooling around, way beyond my normal limits, and he [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse] near my private area. I am now having the syptoms of hopefully stress and pre-meunstral effects or something I have lived worry free of for 7 years, which would be pregnancy.

Help. I dont even know what my question is. I have confessed to God and have repented and maybe I just needed to vent. I dont know.

Ashamed.

 

[Malachi425]

The chances that you are pregnant because of an incident like that are very slim. Unless you are late, I wouldn't worry too much. I'm sure you are just experiencing heightened emotions because you may be near your time of the month. But don't get me wrong, pregnancy CAN happen that way, it's just very very rare. I say wait and see if your monthly cycle happens or not, and then start to worry.

 

[dead2self]

Well first of all we all sin. This does not ruin your witness or testimony. In fact, handled correctly this will strengthen it. The proper handling of our sin will speak volumes about our walk with Christ. Showing repentance and asking forgiveness more fully displays God's grace than the mask of perfection we normally wear in public.

It is good that you have confessed to God and repented. In doing so, you are of course forgiven. Now, if God has forgiven you, what right does anyone on earth have to condemn you? None. Youdid wrong yes. But you are obviously broken about it and forgiven by God. That last is the important part. We all go astray from time to time.

I do not know how your church operates, but I'd tend to recommend that you sit down with the elders, or at the very least the head pastor and confess this. Talk about what happened and how you feel about it. There might be a short time of discipline, but I doubt it as you are no longer in sin. You have allready come to repentance whch is the whole point of discipline. In a good biblical church, confessing this will not ruin your opportunity for ministry. If a single sin was cause to be sat down from ministry, then no one would qualify.

 

[favoredbyGod]

We all sin...and God forgives us. You have done what most people will not do and that is admit what you have done and you have repented.

People at your church should not be quick to judge you if you decide to confess openly, for we all have sinned. No one is perfect and no person is exempt from sin and temptation.

I'm praying that everything works out in your favor.....Be encouraged!

 

[Johnnz]

I agree that you are unlikely to be pregnant.

As for your sexual behaviour. As much as many Christians would be critical, there is also a very large number of single Christians from teenagers onwards who engage(d) in, or have little issue with, that level of sexual activity.

I suggest you separate out your fear of pregnancy from the issue of what standards you and your boyfriend will adopt from here out. Your comments suggest you are not that well educated sexually (forgive me if I got that wrong) and that you became alarmed at a normal consequence of your sexual activity. What happened was a normal outcome of engagement in sexual behaviour. You can sort out what moral stance you now want to follow.

Life has not ended. Just reflect, evaluate, chose your road, and get on with life.

John
NZ

 

[ForAMomentIWillFly]

((hug)) Unlikely pregnant. I think we, as women, especially those who have a spiritual conscience, convince ourselves our sin is worse than it is.

Wait until it's been a few weeks from this time, get a good pregnancy test, check for sure. If positive, go from there. If not, learn from this...

 

[ForHisGlory2008]

It's very, very unlikely you are pregnant though not impossible. If you are pregnant, you have not ruined your testimony. First, this is between you and God ... but it is of serious concern to have someone in ministry who is struggling with the sin of immorality. I suggest you find a trusted collegue to discuss this with and pray. What happens there will probably depend more whether it is ongoing or a one off. You may not even have to tell the congregation. It's really none of their business.

If you are pregnant, God can use your experience for good. Yes, you will find those who judge you and condemn you. To me, that is a mark of Christian immaturity. The mature Christians will, I sincerely hope, show love and mercy to you. All have sinned and fallen short. This could be a great testimony...."I was a minister, I fell, I got up again and went from strength to strength...".

All the best.

 

[drich0150]

Anointed, exalted, recently broken, and humbled.. I'd say you have a great start to being an awesome teacher..

There is a "Preacher story" that tells of the apostle Peter, and every time he went to speak before a large crowd, the "Anti-Christians" of the day, would Crow at him like a rooster.. To remind him of what he had done, and to try and break his nerve..

Paul was given a thorn in the flesh to keep him humble. But he saw that it was thru his weakness God was able to make him strong!

And you've been given the possibility of a baby. You know to some, married or not this is a blessing. The only real difference I can see from what you have written is a matter of circumstance and Pride.
Others have said, "learn from this lesson" May I suggest, not only should you learn from this, But If you have been truly "Anointed" then teach from it as well. Let others benefit from you knowledge and wisdom.

 

[dead2self]

Anointed, exalted, recently broken, and humbled.. I'd say you have a great start to being an awesome teacher..

There is a "Preacher story" that tells of the apostle Peter, and every time he went to speak before a large crowd, the "Anti-Christians" of the day, would Crow at him like a rooster.. To remind him of what he had done, and to try and break his nerve..

Paul was given a thorn in the flesh to keep him humble. But he saw that it was thru his weakness God was able to make him strong!

And you've been given the possibility of a baby. You know to some, married or not this is a blessing. The only real difference I can see from what you have written is a matter of circumstance and Pride.
Others have said, "learn from this lesson" May I suggest, not only should you learn from this, But If you have been truly "Anointed" then teach from it as well. Let others benefit from you knowledge and wisdom.

Great advice there brother

 

[bsd13]

Supposing for a moment that you are pregnant. So what? God's getting ready to throw a party over the birth of a new child and you're here bemoaning what has happened and heaping condemnation upon yourself. How do you expect God to celebrate a new child?

Notice I said celebrate a new child. Not to celebrate your sin. That he forgives, but should the product be a child God will celebrate that product.

But yeah I can't imagine you'd be pregnant from what you've described.

 

[Vehementi Dominus]

OK, you've managed to do what countless millions of generations of women have also managed to do. It's reprodiction. It's human. It's what happens, without it, we'd quickly become extinct.

There's no reason to look down on yourself for doing what humans generally do. You are actually human, right?

 

[David2000]

God is merciful,Let now your face turn away from looking wrongdoings.As human we can not change the past as GOD almighty do but we can make the future better upon looking on the crucified one.

Get encourage with this verse from the book of proverbs ,and flee from environments led YOU to that past agony.


Proverbs 24:16 For an upright man, after falling seven times, will get up again(BBE)

 

[Vehementi Dominus]

God is merciful,Let now your face turn away from looking wrongdoings.As human we can not change the past as GOD almighty do but we can make the future better upon looking on the crucified one.

Alternatively, ignore that and instead of turning away from "wrongdoings" that you've done in the past, embrace them and learn from them. Draw strength from it.

If you look away from them, it leaves you open to repeat your actions.

 

[dead2self]

OK, you've managed to do what countless millions of generations of women have also managed to do. It's reprodiction. It's human. It's what happens, without it, we'd quickly become extinct.

There's no reason to look down on yourself for doing what humans generally do. You are actually human, right?

Sorry but this forum is for Christian advice only. Her problem runs a bit deeper than that of simple reproduction. She is broken over sin.

 

[forever changed]

I want to thank all of you for all of your replies. It truly has helped me so much.

I know that I should not heap condemnation on myself over my sin and yet at the same time I do not want to just simply shrug it off. I am thankful that I am broken over it ... it lets me know God is still with me and working in me. I do not want to become cold, hardened and calloused.

I am praying that all of you are correct and that I am just being hyper sensitive over the situation and that I am more than likely not pregnant. However, I am 30 years old and know my body pretty well. Plus, I failed to mention that I already have a child. He is almost 12. I have been having the same symptoms I experienced in my pregnancy with him. However, I also know that my hormones could be out of whack and therefore are causing heightened side effects of my normal meunstal cycle.

I have learned from this. And I also want to make sure that it is not misunderstood that this has not been habit for me. ... not by any means.

I know my church family is a great one, while I have my critics, I have many who also genuinely love the Lord and therefore me. I know that they will show utter understanding and love and support. I just hate to not only disappoint myself, but them and especially My Father. He has loved me with a love that I cannot fathom, and I hate that I have sinned against Him. I know that He still loves me and has forgiven me, and for that I am thankful.

More than likely I will confess to the church. Maybe not the whole congregation, but definately the leaders. I know many have said on here that it is none of thier business, but I believe much differently. What is done in the body affects the whole body. We are one, and they have the right to know. Not only that they will be able to hold me accountable. Plus it sheds light on the matter, which gives power and freedom. Anything that stays in the dark or secret can become a stonghold, and I do not want that at all.

Thanks again. I should know shortly what I am really dealing with and will keep you posted.

 

[forever changed]

that verse was really inspiring DAVID. thanks

 

[forever changed]

Anointed, exalted, recently broken, and humbled.. I'd say you have a great start to being an awesome teacher..

There is a "Preacher story" that tells of the apostle Peter, and every time he went to speak before a large crowd, the "Anti-Christians" of the day, would Crow at him like a rooster.. To remind him of what he had done, and to try and break his nerve..

Paul was given a thorn in the flesh to keep him humble. But he saw that it was thru his weakness God was able to make him strong!

And you've been given the possibility of a baby. You know to some, married or not this is a blessing. The only real difference I can see from what you have written is a matter of circumstance and Pride.
Others have said, "learn from this lesson" May I suggest, not only should you learn from this, But If you have been truly "Anointed" then teach from it as well. Let others benefit from you knowledge and wisdom.

I had forgotten the story of Peter and the crowd crowing at him. Thanks for reminding me. In my situation I can't see anyone doing that, besides satan who may try to discourage me by whipsering defeat in my ear, but not the true chruch.

 

[MarkSB]

Anything that stays in the dark or secret can become a stonghold, and I do not want that at all.

Thanks again. I should know shortly what I am really dealing with and will keep you posted.

It sounds like God has given you the wisdom to deal with this, it is important to confess, as you say, so it does not eat away from the inside or become a stronghold. God bless you on your journey.

 

[ForHisGlory2008]

It is true that what is done in the body affects the body ... however, unless it was an ongoing problem, I don't think leadership needs to be made aware of it. However if you feel a need to front up (which is authenticity and transparency), you must do that.

 

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