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WayOfTheMaster
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Well first of all I do hope that im posting in the right place. if not please feel free to move this to the correct spot.
Here is the problem.
I am 21 years old my wife is 20. We will have been married now a year on the 23rd of this month.
My wife and were married at age 20 and before that we had only been together for 6 months. Yes Yes Yes . I know I must be crazy right? WRONG. I loved her and I could see myself with her for the rest of my life.
My wife and I also had another reason though. My wife was with child. So that kind of put us in a dead sprint to the alter.
I would like to say I did the romantic thing and got on 1 knee and asked her hand in marriage with a fancy ring. Truth is I never did any of that, we kind of just talked about it, and decided thats what we were going to do.
Before I was married I had a huge addiction. This stayed with me my whole marriage. My wife would constantly ask me Are you being faithful, And me always replying yes ofcorse.
But the truth was I was not being faithful at least physically I was being faithful. yes If you have guessed my addiction good for you.
My wife had always asked me the question of me being faithful because she had been in abusive and cheating relationships so naturally my wife was very very insecure.
I lied to my wife up to the full 6 months of us just going out to 2 months of our marriage. I wanted to stop this addiction with all my heart but I couldn't
It was to strong for me alone to defeat it. I became desperate and bought books. I never really asked the church for help which I regret now. But I tried everything else. I prayed, and read constantly still I was defeated.
One day While I was at work my wife got ahold of a book I was reading to try and help me. My wife brought it up to me on the phone asking me "what is this"? I wanted to lie. But nevertheless I thought to myself the only way to freedom of this addiction is to confess, so I did. I have never seen my wife so down. Its like a had taken any repect she had for me, herself, any ounce of dignity for herself any shred of confidence and destroyed it.
I broke down, and she broke down it was a huge mess. My wife was clearly at the lowest point of her whole life. and she should have, I screwed up big time. Luckily my wife calmed down finally after 2 days and told me she was going to stick with me through this hard time, support me through this. I broke down again and thanked her and GOD for this blessing.After that I did great for awhile.
I still had it bad I again failed and my addiction took ahold of me. I ended up lieing to my wife again, failing to talk to her about anything, in fear that she would leave at this time of need. surly I could not tell my wife that I failed again, exspeacaly after what happen last time.
I finally gained the strength one night after she looked at me for the 8th time and asked me, I told her everything. My wife broke down again, as well as me. However this time she comforted me and talked to me telling me we will beat this and she will be there no matter what.
Its been 2 weeks now and I have been free for this time. Fasting, praying, and reading the bible.
However on my wifes side, she is constantly angry, constantly lashes out, she is verbally abusive now and she is destructive. It literally scares me. there is no trust and the worst is we constantly fight in front of our 4 month old little girl. She has got to this point where I will try and leave. But she always says something as I leave, to not get me to go. If I do leave she comes after me more angry and destructive.
Yesterday we ended up fighting all day. after we were done she said something that really got me. she said She asked God if he would protect our little girl from this mess she would give her soul to Satan. I could not believe what she said. My wife has also started seeing things run past her lately, black figures. she also see's reflections of faces. This has got me in a stage of panic. I don't know what to do. I keep thinking my wife has opened portals in herself and when she gets angry its like shes possessed. My wife always breaks down when were done fighting and cry saying she could see what was happening but she could not stop herself, she says she has no control.
WHAT IS THIS? what do I do about this? I have taken charge to going to my church for help I'm seeing my pastor today after work. and I'm also trying to get in daily prayers and readings in the bible.
Has my wife been possessed? Can we over come this evil that has come into our household?
I have dedicated myself to helping my wife and to doing anything I can to save her and our marriage starting with church discusions and asking you guys..
Please Help.
thank you.
Here is the problem.
I am 21 years old my wife is 20. We will have been married now a year on the 23rd of this month.
My wife and were married at age 20 and before that we had only been together for 6 months. Yes Yes Yes . I know I must be crazy right? WRONG. I loved her and I could see myself with her for the rest of my life.
My wife and I also had another reason though. My wife was with child. So that kind of put us in a dead sprint to the alter.
I would like to say I did the romantic thing and got on 1 knee and asked her hand in marriage with a fancy ring. Truth is I never did any of that, we kind of just talked about it, and decided thats what we were going to do.
Before I was married I had a huge addiction. This stayed with me my whole marriage. My wife would constantly ask me Are you being faithful, And me always replying yes ofcorse.
But the truth was I was not being faithful at least physically I was being faithful. yes If you have guessed my addiction good for you.
My wife had always asked me the question of me being faithful because she had been in abusive and cheating relationships so naturally my wife was very very insecure.
I lied to my wife up to the full 6 months of us just going out to 2 months of our marriage. I wanted to stop this addiction with all my heart but I couldn't
It was to strong for me alone to defeat it. I became desperate and bought books. I never really asked the church for help which I regret now. But I tried everything else. I prayed, and read constantly still I was defeated.
One day While I was at work my wife got ahold of a book I was reading to try and help me. My wife brought it up to me on the phone asking me "what is this"? I wanted to lie. But nevertheless I thought to myself the only way to freedom of this addiction is to confess, so I did. I have never seen my wife so down. Its like a had taken any repect she had for me, herself, any ounce of dignity for herself any shred of confidence and destroyed it.
I broke down, and she broke down it was a huge mess. My wife was clearly at the lowest point of her whole life. and she should have, I screwed up big time. Luckily my wife calmed down finally after 2 days and told me she was going to stick with me through this hard time, support me through this. I broke down again and thanked her and GOD for this blessing.After that I did great for awhile.
I still had it bad I again failed and my addiction took ahold of me. I ended up lieing to my wife again, failing to talk to her about anything, in fear that she would leave at this time of need. surly I could not tell my wife that I failed again, exspeacaly after what happen last time.
I finally gained the strength one night after she looked at me for the 8th time and asked me, I told her everything. My wife broke down again, as well as me. However this time she comforted me and talked to me telling me we will beat this and she will be there no matter what.
Its been 2 weeks now and I have been free for this time. Fasting, praying, and reading the bible.
However on my wifes side, she is constantly angry, constantly lashes out, she is verbally abusive now and she is destructive. It literally scares me. there is no trust and the worst is we constantly fight in front of our 4 month old little girl. She has got to this point where I will try and leave. But she always says something as I leave, to not get me to go. If I do leave she comes after me more angry and destructive.
Yesterday we ended up fighting all day. after we were done she said something that really got me. she said She asked God if he would protect our little girl from this mess she would give her soul to Satan. I could not believe what she said. My wife has also started seeing things run past her lately, black figures. she also see's reflections of faces. This has got me in a stage of panic. I don't know what to do. I keep thinking my wife has opened portals in herself and when she gets angry its like shes possessed. My wife always breaks down when were done fighting and cry saying she could see what was happening but she could not stop herself, she says she has no control.
WHAT IS THIS? what do I do about this? I have taken charge to going to my church for help I'm seeing my pastor today after work. and I'm also trying to get in daily prayers and readings in the bible.
Has my wife been possessed? Can we over come this evil that has come into our household?
I have dedicated myself to helping my wife and to doing anything I can to save her and our marriage starting with church discusions and asking you guys..
Please Help.
thank you.
