Please someone talk to me! I am worried and i need to know about this

[Kostilaks]

2 years ago, I was out, near in my apartment and ocd was telling me to do a compulsion. I tried to make a promise to Christian God about not returning home in order to get paper napkins which was what ocd was telling me to do. I tried to make the promise in order to force myself not do the compulsiom by using the fear of the promise. I canceled the promise but what if other Gods accepted it?

Yesterday, I was in my childhood home, in the living room. Due to ocd, I started saying to Gods stuff like "no return, no napkin" in order to make sure that there was not any misunderstanding and that I did not broke the promise. I got anxious and kept repeating "no return, no napkin". Due to anxiety, when I said "'no return" my body made a small movement as if it was turning the other way. I got worried because what if it was an imitation of the promise?

I was thinkng about it and tried to convince myself that this is just stupid ocd stuff. I never imitated anything about napkins. I think I was trying to see if me turning back was really, an imitation or just, ocd nonsense. At that moment, I think, I made the same movement in order to find out if it was an imitation or not. I worry. What if by trying to find out if it was an imitation, I imitated it? I never imitated getting napkins. What if by trying to turn back in order to understand if it was an imitation, I imitated someone who is outside and plans to return home to get napkins? What if just, by randomly, imitating my body turning back, I was imitating the whole promise without realising it?

Did I broke the promise? I never planned to return home to get napkins but what if by turning, a little, my body back, was an imitation of me having in my mind the goal to get napkins? Is the promise broken? Please tell me if my post makes sense :/

 

[Dahlia Grace]

OCD is a serious illness that can make you feel and do things you know are not correct. While you made a promise to God, He would surely understand that you are doing what you can.
Returning home to get napkins isn't a sin- instead of making promises, ask God how He can help you overcome your compulsions and your anxiety.

Know that you are not alone in suffering from OCD.

Consider what the Holy Bible says about temptations and anxiety:
God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it. (1 Corinthians 10:13)
Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak. (Matthew 26:41)

I often refer to these words of wisdom when I see myself tempted to do something or when I see myself overcome with anxiety.

 

[Heavenhome]

Please do not worry. God understands you way better than you even know yourself.
Your promise was all part of your OCD and He knows that.
Perhaps rather than thinking you need to make promises to God, what if you just pray and ask Him simply when you are going to do a task that concerns you.

Above all else, try to remember Psalm 46 verse 10a "Be still and know that I am God"
maybe when troubled you could say this and it may help you feel more at peace.

Rest assured that you are most precious to God and anything you may say during an episode of OCD, God already knows.
He will never leave or forsake you dear one.

 

[Dahlia Grace]

Please do not worry. God understands you way better than you even know yourself.
Your promise was all part of your OCD and He knows that.
Perhaps rather than thinking you need to make promises to God, what if you just pray and ask Him simply when you are going to do a task that concerns you.

Above all else, try to remember Psalm 46 verse 10a "Be still and know that I am God"
maybe when troubled you could say this and it may help you feel more at peace.

Rest assured that you are most precious to God and anything you may say during an episode of OCD, God already knows.
He will never leave or forsake you dear one.

I especially think Heavenhome has some good advice on this one.

Maybe also try reciting a verse or a personal mantra when you feel obsessive compulsions? It can help you ground yourself and remind you that things are ok. I have found through family and friends suffering from OCD that the repetitiveness of a mantra especially helps in incidences of OCD since OCD is all about repetition and your mind getting stuck on a certain idea or anxiety

 

[Jeshu]

It is about making these times with Jesus instead of without Him. Can you see the focus of your OCD mind - you and what you did or did not do, but the truth is it is not about you and what you did or did not do but about Jesus and what He did.

So thank Jesus and put your hope in Him, make that your compulsion. To be with Jesus also when the storm is there. Honest He will calm the storm.

Step out of the lies of your ill mind and jump into the truth of Jesus. He died to pay your price, nothing you do or don't do can take this away from you if you believe the truth.

This is what this is about you have to trust in the Grace of Jesus. So when your O.C.D has you looking at you again, make that a trigger to go to Jesus. Honest His peace and rest are the best you can hope to find anywhere.

Go to Jesus with your burdens even now.

 

[Kostilaks]

what if other Gods accepted the promise?

 

[Rescued One]

what if other Gods accepted the promise?

Our God is stronger than demons or false gods.

I hope you have a Bible. Try to memorize Bible verses. If that's difficult, write some verses that are helpful for you on paper. Put the paper where you can see it. A lot of Americans put notes on our refrigerators with magnets or if our doors are metal we put them there. If your door is wood, you can use tape.

1 John 5
3 In fact, this is love for God: to keep his commands. And his commands are not burdensome, 4 for everyone born of God overcomes the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world, even our faith. 5 Who is it that overcomes the world? Only the one who believes that Jesus is the Son of God.

I ask God for help and I thank Him many times a day.