This boils down to my fear that the COVID shot was the mark of the beast.
Do not trust what fear tells us.
What matters is how we depend on God. And do the practical things He has us doing to take care of ourselves.
What matters could be not what the mark is, but what has people taking it. People not depending on God is at least a major part of the problem, I would say. We also can be wrong to depend on our own selves . . . like you could be doing, by not trusting this thing to God for Him to be our Good and Trustworthy Judge.
If you are going by things that you in fear can think up, this is not trusting God.
I'm not proud of taking it.
Well, we should do things to take care of ourselves. We use water. We use food. We use education to help us know what is good for us, healthwise and medically.
I am sure you could find someone who would tell you that toothpaste and antibiotics and vitamins are the anti-Christ's mark.
For a while, ones said our social security numbers were the mark. But many people in the world don't even have social security numbers!!
The real mark has to be what every sinner in the world can have. Shots do not make the list for that . . . right?
The reasoning behind why I took it is pitiful. I before taking it said, "what if this is the mark?" But I wouldn't harken that when it was dropped in my mind. I wanted to go see a secular concert and I made up my mind that I was going. I closed off my ears to that warning and took the shot because I needed it to get into this concert.
I would say that was a false warning.
Even so > going to a worldly concert was not a the best possible reason for getting the shot. At least you have enough of a functioning conscience to see that was not the really right reason to take the shot. But there was something to that, maybe > in my opinion, taking the shot can be caring about others who could be hurt much more than me if I go the COVID and then helped spread it to ones more susceptible than I am.
A trick, then, of the shot fear is it has people worrying only and mainly about their own selves, like it appears you have been tricked into doing.
So - - then - - - get into caring about others, rather than isolating yourself in fear and its torment. Trust in Jesus to have you doing this.
The messed up part was that by the time the concert came around they were no longer requiring vaccine verification cards to get in.
So what?? Still you can be caring about others by taking shots so you won't be helping spread it to ones who might get hurt a lot more than you would by it. In any case, have caring reasons for what you do . . .
***p~r~a~y~e~r~
f~u~l~l~y*** caring.
I could have got in without the shot at that point.
The mark will not stop being required; so the shot could not be the mark. So, now you have proof of how that fear stuff was lying to you. Trust God, instead.
My heart was wicked I would gamble my soul for a stupid concert.
No, your problem was trusting the fear and its thinking.
I feel like the Holy Spirit is gone and I am dead spiritually.
Well, we have the Holy Spirit to *constantly* guide us in sharing with Jesus and one another. It does not seem like you have been doing this, including in sharing with other children of God who help and encourage you. But you have let Satanic nonsense of fear guide you. So, trust in Jesus and share with His people.
I can close my eyes my body rests and I feel like dozing but it's like my spiritual mind will not fully turn over into a peaceful sleep.
Trust God to give you sleep. If you stay awake, use the time for something good, like caring on prayer for others.
I keep hearing voices saying I committed the unpardonable sin. I took the mark of the beast. I am damned forever.
And I think we have disproven this. Among other things, the real mark won't stop being required. And we were able to buy and sell even if we did not have shots. So, it wasn't the mark. Plus, many people around the world could not get it.
So, trust Jesus, instead of yourself!
"If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow Me." (in Luke 9:23)
We need to deny ourselves with all the Satanic nonsense *any* of us can make up. And trust how Jesus changes us into peaceful and gentle and humble people submissive to God.
"Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you." (James 4:7)
I have moments where thoughts that are peaceful and trying to comfort me but I attribute that to Satan playing sick games to get me to hope when the truth is there is none. What if it is the Holy Spirit trying to get through to me but I contributed His presence to Satan's which is the unforgivable sin, it's the one thing God can't forgive.
Trust God to make you able to tell the difference. God is the One worthy to guide you.
By the way > *you* do some forgiving; never mind worrying only about your own self. But you care about others being forgiven, and pray this for them.
When I tell you I am a mess, that is an understatement. I've struggled with mental health issues my entire life, but maybe that's the price I have to pay for relinquishing my soul.
Says who?
Please hear me, don't take the vaccine.
All right . . . we have already dealt with this, I would say. And possibly you don't even know the science or personally know the people who have told you what you are believing. So, you could be assuming in the dark, in order to choose any "side" or claim, right?
In my case, I did not believe anyone . . . since I knew I did not personally know any of them and I was not a legal witness to who was telling the truth or not; so I just trusted God to guide me.
Now I'm just waiting till the Lord comes back or I die in this life before getting thrown in the pit of hell. I will be in agony forever and I can't wrap my mind around that.
"'Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.'" (Matthew 11:28-29)
