Please pray for me

[Boomygrrl]

Dear forum Christians,

I ask that you pray for me. I have been hanging out at the apologetics forum for awhile and I feel like the more I ask questions, the more I am slipping and slipping away.
I feel like Christians and non-Christians are truly talking different languages, have such different worldviews, and cannot understand each other anymore.

I am agnostic. I'm not sure if there is a God. I know one thing, I am not a Christian. It just doesn't make any logical sense to me. No matter how much I try to make sense of it, it is full of mystery, faith, and illogical inconsistencies. That, of course, is my point of view.

Here's my struggle. I would love to be a Christian again. I lost my faith. I just cannot accept Christianity. I would love to have that security I felt as a Christian. I would love to have a relationship with God, if he exists. I would love to feel a part of my Christian community (most of my friends are Christian, all of my family is Christian). I wish I could just believe, but I can't.

I started crying, after yet another unsuccessful dead-end discussion in the apologetic forum. I am the type of person that I will keep asking and asking until I get answers. But the more I ask, the more confusion I have.

I am getting to the point of just giving up. Maybe I'm just not meant to be a Christian. Maybe there is no God; or at least not a loving God. Maybe there is just no way of knowing either way. Maybe this is it. Maybe this is the end of my spiritual journey. I am so close to just becoming an atheist. I am so frustrated, so saddened by this, and so angry at God for not helping me with this (if there even is a God).

I'm not looking for a discussion. I've been doing that in the apologetics forum. I am sincerely looking for prayers. If I'm going to convert to Christianity, it's going to take a miracle, at this point. I want to be a Christian on one hand, but my brain won't let me. And I won't abandon my brain. Call it pride. Tell me I'm a bad, evil person if you must. But this is where I"m stuck.

Rational discussion isn't working. So, I feel like all that's left is prayers.
I am debating with myself whether to participate in the apologetics discussions anymore, as it is causing me more grief. I haven't come up with a final decision, but I'm leaning towards just abandoning it all.

Again, I'm just asking for prayers. Don't try to convert me through discussion, because it hasn't worked and will just make me more angry.

Thanks,

Boomygrrl

 

[Kairos]

Almighty Father,
I pray for Boomygrrl. You have called her by the Gospel, help bring her to faith in our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Enlighten her with Your Holy Spirit so that she may recognize what is Your will in every situation of her life. Give her the courage to decide every issue accordingly and to leave the final outcome to Your direction. Comfort her through this hard time, and surround her with Your healing touch, love and grace Lord. Strengthen her O Lord, and guide her with only wisdom that you can provide. Grant her in Your care and protection, In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.

I will continue to pray for you, Boomygrrl.

 

[JacobsDream]

Father, you said that where two or more are gathered in your name, that you are there in there midst. We come today in your presence to commit Boomygrrl into your hands.
You died for us all on the cross and you who gave your life are more than able to see Boomgrrl through this time. Yes you are real and true but yet, many have misunderstood and misinterpreted you. Reveal yourself to her to the glory of your name.
Finish what you started in her life in Jesus name, amen.

 

[Mister Emu]

Lord God. Almighty Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, we your Church, your children, petition you on behalf of our sister Boomygrrl. May you reveal yourself unto her who needs you, lead her with your firm hand into your loving embrace, guide her with your all-knowing wisdom to your eternal joy, comfort her with you endless mercies. May you touch her body, mind, and soul, so that she may know beyond the shadow of a doubt your love and grace.

Where rationale fails, the spirit may over come, Holy spirit, great comforter, come unto your daughter, You who go forth comforting, and bring our brothers and sisters to the church single out this one and be with her.

In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit we pray. Amen.

 

[Boomygrrl]

Kairos, Jacobs Dream, and Mister Emu,
Thanks for your prayers.
Boomygrrl

 

[sc4s2cg]

Father, I pray for Boomygrrl who wants to know You for what You are, but is having some troubles. L-rd, please open her eye's so that she may see You, and soften her heart and ears so that she may hear Your word. May Your will be done.
In Christ's name,
Amen.

Boomygrrl, do you mind if I request a prayer for you in prayer circles?

G-d bless, I'll be praying for you,
sc

 

[tryniti]

Dear Lord, I come to you today for my dear sister Boomygrrl. She is hurting and confused, Lord. I ask that you will show her your great love, give her something that she can know with all her heart is unquestionably You. Show her Your intimate love today, Father.

In your name, amen

 

[Hackett]

Oh Father, the lover of our souls, I come to you on behalf of Boomygrrl. I pray Father in the power of the Holy Spirit and through the redemptive power of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ that you would open her heart and draw her to yourself. Thank you Lord. Amen.

For God hath not given us a Spirit of fear but of power and of love and of a sound mind. 2 Timothy 1:7 KJV

 

[Boomygrrl]

Boomygrrl, do you mind if I request a prayer for you in prayer circles?
sc

I don't mind. Sure.
Boomygrrl

 

[Boomygrrl]

Thanks SC, Tryniti, and Hackett.
Very cleaver spelling Tryniti.

Boomygrrl

 

[jehovahway]

well let me say first off, every christian does not have all the
answers.
Yes there is a God,i know him personel,I have also seen two
of Gods angels.
Then holy bible teaches that no one can come to God unless the holy spirit draws them to God.
its not our choice weather we come to God its his choice.
He decides in his due time not ours.not us.
A lot of christians are off base on a lot of things,
Jehovah controls every thing he has created including all of us.
Most people think they do their on thing all their life,even a lot of christians dont know much themselves.
Only what other people told them.that does not mean its true.
The holy bible teaches that it is the holy spirit that brings
truth to us,not the bible are people.
As long as you live God will always be there for you,he knows what your thinking before you ever speak a word.
It is God along you need to talk to,he hears your ever word,even when your thinking before you ever speak he heard you.
I have had the holy spirit for some 30 years,And for years God never dealt with me about anything he just let me do what i wished to do,
then some three years ago God started becoming more real to me.Making himself more real to me in a personel way.
As you search for God go direct to him talk to him he hears
your ever word.He will always be there for you even if he never speaks to you he is always there for you.
You can ask him to lead and direct your life where he wonts it to go then put it in his hands,and dont worry about it any longer.
God has a purpose for everyone he has created usually it takes years for us to understand what God wonts for us.
The main thing is to have christian friends you can talk to.
Because satan controls the world under Gods direction.
God uses both satan and his demons to teach people things.
Jehovah controls everthing ,PEOPLE,DEMONS,INSECTS,THE WORLD,WHIRLDWIND,WEATHER,EARTHQUAKES,THE SOLAR SYSTEM,THE PLANETS
They do what he tells them to do.
Jehovah also controls what nations do ,Jehovah brings up nations and Jehovah takes nations down when they have served his purpose.
You are not along in understanding a whole lot of things,but as you continue along on your way you will be brought into
the truth as God wills not as you will and other people will.
Most people cant understand why all the hurt in the world and why a loving God does not do something about it,But thats just it he will in his due time not ours.
At jesus christ return all things will be brought under his control then we will have a 1000 year with him in total control of the world.
This will be a world under his total control ,Satan and his demons will not be controling people then.
Jesus christ will be controling the whole Earth then.not satan.
Two things you need to guard with your life,And that is your thoughts,satan can and will place thoughts in your mind,and
you will think their your thoughts.
I am 64 will be 65 march 9 i have ask God to tell me the truth of things i did not go to a christian even thought i am one i went to God to get the answers and he gave them to
me .
I dident get the answers over night it took 20 years.of talking to God about these matters and he sent the holy spirit to me to show me the truth.
God can use people to show you truth but if their in error so
will you be.
The bottom line is talk to God not people weather they be christian are not.
Have a blessed day in Jesus holy name.in his service kingdom of god

 

[bethdinsmore]

I will try to avoid discussion, and I will pray.

I was an atheist. If you wish to know more, see my profile.

I avoid the Discussion and Debate forum. Here's why:
http://www.nizkor.org/features/fallacies/

I am now a Christian. Here's why:
www.tektonics.org
www.carm.org
www.probe.org
www.icr.org

Please let me know if I can help in any way, friend. As I said, I'll pray for you.
Aloha in Jesus

 

[RRomm]

Prayers said for you Boomygrrl

 

[Birdy_for_Christ]

Dear Heavenly Father,
I ask You to please help our beloved friend Boomygrrl, who is very confused right now. Let her know that You are there and that You love her more than anything and are watching over her everyday of her life. We all get confused and frustrated in our lives. I just ask You that draw her to You, and pull her out of this place she's stick in. In Your wonderful name Lord Jesus I pray.
Amen

 

[JacobsDream]

Lord show yourself to her in a way that she will experience herself and no one can cause her to doubt in Jesus name.

 

[tommyboy]

Lord , I ask you to make your presence know to boomygrrl,as you have done for me... let her feel your peace & love.

 

[ps139]

Dear Boomy,

Never give up your search. I think you know that it would be foolish to resign yourself to atheism out of frustration, which is the impression I got from your post.

Your friend,
Bill