Hello all,
Every other time ive posted on CF, it has usually been with happiness and joy that I write. This time, however, I write to you in tears begging on my knees for your help.
My girlfriend of two and a half years just broke up with me. She did this yesterday out of nowhere, it seemed. I had gone over to her house to talk about how our lives were changing for the better. To my surprise, after I was done talking, she laid it on me. Two and a half years flashed before my eyes and *poof* just like that they were gone.
I gave my life to this girl, and loved her with my whole heart. I still love her, and will always love her! I cannot stop thinking about her. For the past 24 hours I have not left the phones unattended, waiting for her call. Well the call finally came about an hour ago, and I have just composed myself enough to type.
I know that she is under a LOT of stress right now with her family, work, school, and cheerleading. Apparently I was on that stress list too, and I was the first egg that she tossed out of the basket. All I want is to help her, but she tells me she cannot handle a relationship right now. But how can two and a half years mean nothing?! Why was I the first thing to go?!
I have never felt worse in my life. It's like someone took a knife and stabbed me in the chest 500000000 times, and is standing over me with an expressionless face. I feel that she doesn't love me, but after giving her my everything, I cannot stop loving her.
She's going out with a friend to get her mind off me (which are her words). Is there anything more painfull that you can tell a person after they have given up years of their life to you?
I can't stop crying. I can't eat. I can't sleep. (The only way I got sleep last night was taking some 'Simply Sleep' pills at about 5:30am after waiting for her call last night). I feel so horrible. I don't know what to do.
My parents tell me that things happen for a reason, but right now I don't see that reason. Everything was going well; her and I would talk about getting married, and imagine those days. Where did all those hopes go? If I were to ever get married, it would be to this girl. I have not, could not, feel this way about anyone else after everything that I shared with her.
Please help! Make the pain go away...
-Swoosh
Every other time ive posted on CF, it has usually been with happiness and joy that I write. This time, however, I write to you in tears begging on my knees for your help.
My girlfriend of two and a half years just broke up with me. She did this yesterday out of nowhere, it seemed. I had gone over to her house to talk about how our lives were changing for the better. To my surprise, after I was done talking, she laid it on me. Two and a half years flashed before my eyes and *poof* just like that they were gone.
I gave my life to this girl, and loved her with my whole heart. I still love her, and will always love her! I cannot stop thinking about her. For the past 24 hours I have not left the phones unattended, waiting for her call. Well the call finally came about an hour ago, and I have just composed myself enough to type.
I know that she is under a LOT of stress right now with her family, work, school, and cheerleading. Apparently I was on that stress list too, and I was the first egg that she tossed out of the basket. All I want is to help her, but she tells me she cannot handle a relationship right now. But how can two and a half years mean nothing?! Why was I the first thing to go?!
I have never felt worse in my life. It's like someone took a knife and stabbed me in the chest 500000000 times, and is standing over me with an expressionless face. I feel that she doesn't love me, but after giving her my everything, I cannot stop loving her.
She's going out with a friend to get her mind off me (which are her words). Is there anything more painfull that you can tell a person after they have given up years of their life to you?
I can't stop crying. I can't eat. I can't sleep. (The only way I got sleep last night was taking some 'Simply Sleep' pills at about 5:30am after waiting for her call last night). I feel so horrible. I don't know what to do.
My parents tell me that things happen for a reason, but right now I don't see that reason. Everything was going well; her and I would talk about getting married, and imagine those days. Where did all those hopes go? If I were to ever get married, it would be to this girl. I have not, could not, feel this way about anyone else after everything that I shared with her.
Please help! Make the pain go away...
-Swoosh