PLEASE HELP ME!

[AmeriLovesJesus]

I have been having so much trouble lately with my beliefs...

I have loosing my faith... Ive been struggling to understand if Jesus is really there...

I use to be so strong in my walk with our Lord... but now Im getting deeper and deeper... into running away...

I am no longer the person I use to be... when I came closer.. I go into work evey morning... with little patience,, as soon as I get there i wnat to get out.. I become angry... I miserable and lash out at people... or at least want to... I use to be so nice.. and caring.. now all I want to do... is just get out..

I have low self esteem... I feel not good enough for my job... I feel like Im just a screw up... I keep questioning my faith.. and Im afraid I have everyone.. including God.. I keep holding onto him.. but then in my mind I say to myself.. that He doesnt wnat anything to do with me anymore... because I have felt bad feelings toward him... and I have felt angry... and impatient..

It wont stop.. Im angry all the time..

My friend keeps offering to take me to church with her.. I want to... but then I feel like Im scared... insecure.. or crazy... and never end up going..

I am so alone!!! ...

I have tried to do so good.. but I feel like God doesnt see it... and doesnt care anymore... or my work wasnt good enough... because I questioned his existence...

I keep having anxiety attacks....

Im am so afraid of dieing...

My past has come back to haunt me... I keep regretting not graduating highschool... I hate myself for what I did in my past... i THOUGHT i HAD FORGIVEN MYSELF... and became a new person!!!

PLEASE HELP!!!

I am so depressed!!

 

[AmeriLovesJesus]

My mom is also always screaming.... I tried saving up money to get out of the house.. but I had to help my sister... Now my mom keeps yelling at me how she wants me out of the house... but she still wants me to help her with money... how am I suppose to get out if I hav to help her with money...

I cant live like this anymore...

She screams all the time... and tells me to get out... I have to finish my schooling.. an save up... money!! but she wont have patience with me...

I thought mothers.. were suppose to care about there children... Instead of trying to kick them out on the street... I would have been out... doesnt she see it.. I just have to get the money to do it...

Im not happy anywhere!!! Im loosing hope!!

 

[AmeriLovesJesus]

I know I m 21 yrs old.. and should be out on my own.. I got out of an abusive relationship almost a year ago.. and Im just beginning.. to learn what its like to be on my own.. I was in it.. for 4 yrs.. my mother wanted me to marry him... but I didnt wnat to.. and Im slowy trying to get my life back!!!...

but I feel.. like just running back... I dont want to.. Its just hard!!

 

[Love&Pain]

1.Trusting God completely means having faith that he knows what is best for your life. You expect him to keep his promises, help you with porblems, and do the impossible when necessary
2.A very important test is how you act when you can't feel God's presence in your life.
3.When life gets tough, when you're overwhelmed with doubt, or when you wonder if living for christ is worth it, remember you're not home yet.
4.Spiritual maturity us becoming like Jesus in the way we think, feel, and act.
5.By doing everything as if you were doing it for Jesus and by carrying on a continual conversation with him while you do it.
5.Anytime you reject any part of yourself, you are rejecting God's wisdom and soverignty in creating you
6. Your goal is not a feeling, but a continual awareness of the reality that God is always present.
7.Your problems are not punishment; they are a wake up call from a loving God
8. The deepest level of worship is praising God in spite of pain, thanking God during a trail, trusting him when tempted, surrending while suffering, and loving him when he seems distant.
9.God can handle you doubt, anger, fear, greif, confusion and questions

 

[Rosa Mystica]

Praying for you, Ameri!

Jesus does exist. W/o Him, this world would make even less sense than it already does. Okay?

I'm here for you if you need me.

Rosa

 

[brinley45cal]

I have been having so much trouble lately with my beliefs...

I have loosing my faith... Ive been struggling to understand if Jesus is really there...

I use to be so strong in my walk with our Lord... but now Im getting deeper and deeper... into running away...

I am no longer the person I use to be... when I came closer.. I go into work evey morning... with little patience,, as soon as I get there i wnat to get out.. I become angry... I miserable and lash out at people... or at least want to... I use to be so nice.. and caring.. now all I want to do... is just get out..

I have low self esteem... I feel not good enough for my job... I feel like Im just a screw up... I keep questioning my faith.. and Im afraid I have everyone.. including God.. I keep holding onto him.. but then in my mind I say to myself.. that He doesnt wnat anything to do with me anymore... because I have felt bad feelings toward him... and I have felt angry... and impatient..

It wont stop.. Im angry all the time..

My friend keeps offering to take me to church with her.. I want to... but then I feel like Im scared... insecure.. or crazy... and never end up going..

I am so alone!!! ...

I have tried to do so good.. but I feel like God doesnt see it... and doesnt care anymore... or my work wasnt good enough... because I questioned his existence...

I keep having anxiety attacks....

Im am so afraid of dieing...

My past has come back to haunt me... I keep regretting not graduating highschool... I hate myself for what I did in my past... i THOUGHT i HAD FORGIVEN MYSELF... and became a new person!!!

PLEASE HELP!!!

I am so depressed!!

Hello there
what you are going through is a dry season in your life,every christian will tell you they have been there.Its kind of like a growing or maturing period,and its tough.
Ok let me see if i can break this down.Think of a large mountian,on top of the mountian nothing grows its bare,but at the bottem of the mountian is where you find growth.Same thing with you if your on the mountian top all the time you cant grow,but when your at the bottom thats where you grow in christ.Does that make any sense?
That scared feeling you are getting when you plan on going the church is the enemy trying to keep you from going so he tries to make you feel uncomfortable so you wont.
Another problem is you are relying on your feelings to much,we dont go by feelings we go by faith.The flesh part of a person dosent want to do anything thats godly and will do whatever it can to keep you from it,thats why you have to go on faith.
You are obviously doing something right or you wouldnt be getting attacked like you are.I used to know someone that every sunday they would get up to go to church and would get sick,and so they wouldnt go.So see how the devil will try to do anything he can to try to keep you from church,sometimed you have to make yourself go and after awhile it will be automatic,sunday comes around and you make it a habbit of automaticly get up and go.If you would like to talk further about this feel free to im or e-mail me.
theres alot going on and some things dont need to be splashed all over the net.
I hope i was able to help you out some like i said feel free to contact me if you need to,and just so you know iam an ordained minister.Anyway stay in the word and keep praying he heres you,sometimes things dont happen when we want them to ,our time and gods time are two diffrerent things.god bless.

 

[AngelaHelene]

praying for you!

 

[devoted daughter]

AmeriLovesJesus
You will be in my prayers
Remain prayerful. He will come to you with comfort and guidance
DD

 

[Live4God]

ALJ, PRAYing Now! GOD BLESS YOU! L4G!

 

[AmeriLovesJesus]

Thank you all!! .. You are also in my prayers!!

Its wierd.. At times Illl be in such a great mood.. and the next everything in my life.. I begin to question... I do keep telling myself... I felt alone at the time... I still do... I felt lost.. and like God was listening.. I started questioning if he was really there... although I dont understand it ... we are not meant to fully understand God's ways...

The past week I was very afraid of dieing.. and wanted to just give up ... because it felt like if we died.. then there is no reason for anything... Then I came to he conclusion... I think Im feeling this way because my grandfather just passed... unexpectedly... Im slowly loosing my loved ones... and Im worried where they go.. Im worried Im loosing my childhood... so I guess this is all normal

Brinley,
I completely understand what you mean.... If we dont go through the trials.. we cant grow...

 

[Bartimaeus]

Thank you all!! .. You are also in my prayers!!

Its wierd.. At times Illl be in such a great mood.. and the next everything in my life.. I begin to question... I do keep telling myself... I felt alone at the time... I still do... I felt lost.. and like God was listening.. I started questioning if he was really there... although I dont understand it ... we are not meant to fully understand God's ways...

The past week I was very afraid of dieing.. and wanted to just give up ... because it felt like if we died.. then there is no reason for anything... Then I came to he conclusion... I think Im feeling this way because my grandfather just passed... unexpectedly... Im slowly loosing my loved ones... and Im worried where they go.. Im worried Im loosing my childhood... so I guess this is all normal

Brinley,
I completely understand what you mean.... If we dont go through the trials.. we cant grow...

AmerilovesJesus,
I wanted to share something with you I learned last night. I was at a church service/bible study, and the pastor mentioned Steven (in Acts) when he was being stoned. He said that he (Steven) saw Christ *STANDING* at the right hand of God. But, the pastor pointed out, everywhere else we hear that He is seated at the right hand of God. Pastor said the difference is that Christ was standing to receive Steven. So, my point is this: when someone dies, and if they have given themselves to Christ, sanctified a place in their hearts for Him, and lived their lives for Him, He stands to receive them when they die. He (Christ) loves all, no matter what we've done, who we are...He loves us, and He died for us. So, now, he awaits our arrival in Heaven, and He will stand to greet us. Isn't that awesome?!



Look at the apostle Paul. He didn't see himself as good enough, and yet, God used him in awesome, powerful ways.

:christ:

like others have said, you'll get through this. Next time you decide to go to church, pray before hand that God will keep you protected from the fears that keep you from going.

If you need a listening ear, feel free to contact me privately.

 

[Mr.Cheese]

*hug*

 

[Cat59]

and for you

Just remember, however you feel, that God will not leave you alone, he promised that he would be with us always, to the end of times. When things get really tough in my life, I hang on to that.
Cat

 

[devoted daughter]

Brinley,
Still praying