- Apr 1, 2013
- 5
- 1
- Country
- United States
- Gender
- Female
- Faith
- Presbyterian
- Marital Status
- Married
- Politics
- US-Republican
Hello 
I am new to Christianity (like 10 weeks new, lol). I have been going to a wonderful church, reading the Bible, and researching questions I have. Only a couple of weeks ago I started reading Mathew and learning about Jesus and his teachings. I was really blown away and moved deeply. Then last week I started learning more about his death and resurrection. My family (husband and children) and I have been watching The Bible series on the History Channel. Yesterday we watched as Jesus was tortured and crucified. I could barely watch it. It horrified me. It made me so sad and I dreamt of it and kept thinking about it today.
Forgive me if I sound ignorant. I just don't understand why Jesus had to go through that for us. I have been reading articles about it to understand it better, but I am still confused. How does his death save us? And if it saves us, does that mean we are free to continue to sin? (not asking as if I want to, but from what I have read it seems like it makes it OK. Its so confusing!) I feel like Jesus was so good and pure - his message so wonderful - that is seems so wrong for him to suffer on our behalf. Is it wrong for me to feel so sad if he died for us? I keep trying to make sense of why he died, but it just doesn't seem right. Maybe it was just seeing the violence portrayed that makes it worse, I'm not sure.
I just want to make sense of it so I can move forward with my journey. I believe in Jesus and his teachings and I am very thankful for him and what his message. I believe in God and want to give myself in service to him. Thank you.
I am new to Christianity (like 10 weeks new, lol). I have been going to a wonderful church, reading the Bible, and researching questions I have. Only a couple of weeks ago I started reading Mathew and learning about Jesus and his teachings. I was really blown away and moved deeply. Then last week I started learning more about his death and resurrection. My family (husband and children) and I have been watching The Bible series on the History Channel. Yesterday we watched as Jesus was tortured and crucified. I could barely watch it. It horrified me. It made me so sad and I dreamt of it and kept thinking about it today.
Forgive me if I sound ignorant. I just don't understand why Jesus had to go through that for us. I have been reading articles about it to understand it better, but I am still confused. How does his death save us? And if it saves us, does that mean we are free to continue to sin? (not asking as if I want to, but from what I have read it seems like it makes it OK. Its so confusing!) I feel like Jesus was so good and pure - his message so wonderful - that is seems so wrong for him to suffer on our behalf. Is it wrong for me to feel so sad if he died for us? I keep trying to make sense of why he died, but it just doesn't seem right. Maybe it was just seeing the violence portrayed that makes it worse, I'm not sure.
I just want to make sense of it so I can move forward with my journey. I believe in Jesus and his teachings and I am very thankful for him and what his message. I believe in God and want to give myself in service to him. Thank you.