My brother asked my help for something.
Suddenly, an intrusive thought popped up that if I help him, it will count as a broken promise.
I got anxious and i was bored on the same time, so I decided not to help him. as i was keep doing my business, my subconscious was full of thoughts like
-oh no, i must not help my brother because of these intrusive thoughts-it will count as a broken promise- i must not help him- but they are just intrusive thoughts- (jokingly) what if meant it?-how it would look like if i was really meaning it? (at that moment, i imagined myself making the intrusive thought as a prayer)- oh no, now, i must not help my brother, hahahaha-
My brother kept insisting and i was forced to help him. i worry if I broke a promise because of my intrusive thoughts. it was not one. they were many that lasted about 7 seconds. i was just paying attention elsewhere and i did not stopped them. usually, i freak out and i stop them and pray that they are just intrusive thoughts. but this time, i just let them pass, i just ignored them and on the same time, i was having other thoughts as a joke. i do not know if these thoughts that popped up as a joke were meant or not. i worry because i did not feel worried when they popped up but i just make fun of them and i worry if, accidentally, meant them.
i should have said "no, they are thoughts without my will" but I kept making fun of my intrusive thoughts. why i did that? everything happened so fast. it lasted about 7 seconds. and now i am worried and confused. did i meant it or not?
instead of saying that they are just intrusive thoughts, i made fun of them and acted for a second, as if they count. why i did that?
Suddenly, an intrusive thought popped up that if I help him, it will count as a broken promise.
I got anxious and i was bored on the same time, so I decided not to help him. as i was keep doing my business, my subconscious was full of thoughts like
-oh no, i must not help my brother because of these intrusive thoughts-it will count as a broken promise- i must not help him- but they are just intrusive thoughts- (jokingly) what if meant it?-how it would look like if i was really meaning it? (at that moment, i imagined myself making the intrusive thought as a prayer)- oh no, now, i must not help my brother, hahahaha-
My brother kept insisting and i was forced to help him. i worry if I broke a promise because of my intrusive thoughts. it was not one. they were many that lasted about 7 seconds. i was just paying attention elsewhere and i did not stopped them. usually, i freak out and i stop them and pray that they are just intrusive thoughts. but this time, i just let them pass, i just ignored them and on the same time, i was having other thoughts as a joke. i do not know if these thoughts that popped up as a joke were meant or not. i worry because i did not feel worried when they popped up but i just make fun of them and i worry if, accidentally, meant them.
i should have said "no, they are thoughts without my will" but I kept making fun of my intrusive thoughts. why i did that? everything happened so fast. it lasted about 7 seconds. and now i am worried and confused. did i meant it or not?
instead of saying that they are just intrusive thoughts, i made fun of them and acted for a second, as if they count. why i did that?