One thing fixed, yet more problems.

[stratsung]

I was not entirely sure where to post this. Sorry

I need to start with some of my history. I have been a christian all my life. And ever since my sophmore year in high school i would always read my Bible, go to church, go to youth group, and pray every day. But my Church broke apart and all of my friends from youth group went to separate places. So since then i almost completely stopped following Christ. I had many problems with pornography and masturbation, and i was almost at a point of declaring myself an atheist.

Then i met this girl i work with. I immediately had a crush on her, and as i got to know her more, i began to think i was in love. She is a woman of God, pretty, very nice, everything a guy could ask for. After a few works of working with her something went off in my head, i suddenly felt the urge to quit masturbating and to never look at porn again. I also began to start looking through my Bible, and i began to pray again. It seems as though God called me back through this girl i have been infatuated with. So i have been over 2 weeks 'sober' of porn and masturbation, a new record for me since i started when i was 14 (i am 18 now and a freshmen in college). So everything seems good right?

Wrong. I am utterly depressed. I feel so stressed and i feel as if nothing will ever go right with my life. The thoughts of this girl wont leave my mind. I cant tell her how i feel either because of a few reasons. I am way too shy, and i know she doesn't feel the same way about me. I have almost reasoned myself to go back to masturbating but i have stopped myself, and i dont know how much longer i can hold out. The girl I like is moving away to a Bible college next semester and i have already written a letter about how i feel and i am going to give it to her the last day i see her. I am hoping that once that happens, this depression will leave me once and for all, but that is over 2 months away!

I dont know what to do

thank you for reading through my horrible writing

 

[Onlythingavailable]

Regarding masturbation, the urge will go away if you "stay strong." The first couple of weeks are the hardest, then your body gets used to it and the struggle fades.

 

[Johnnz]

Unrequited love is painful. And its not at all easy living with a sex drive and being single. You won't become asexual, so don't buy into that view. You need to think through some issues and come to some informed decisions.

John
NZ

 

[Angeldove97]

If you care for her, let her know. If she's a true friend... one worthy of your love and friendship... she won't be offended by the letter you give her. She may not have that same attraction to you, but a true friend cherishes that type of love and dedication.

My sweetheart and I were friends for over a year before we started dating. He fell in love with me a few months after chatting online and prayed for over a year before finally telling me he loved me. He was VERY nervous, but he was honest with me and I adored him for loving me that much that he would pray every night that God would protect me and should he be the one to be my boyfriend/future husband, he'd be really happy with that We've been dating for 2 and half years now...engaged... and very blessed.

Go for it, pray over it, and let her decide--- even if she doesn't want to date, I'm sure she'll be happy that you care so much about her.