Hi there,
I am a new member and I have schizophrenia too.
I am a baptized christian since last Easter. I found that some things got easier since my baptism. I can't quite name it, I don't know what exactly has changed, but I have a better sense of being right with God, and that in baptism He has done something about me. I feel more optimistic spiritually, I feel like I can rely on God now, in the knowledge that He has indeed saved me and will always save me, if I just remain faithful to Him.
Recently I have found that I should not always expect miraculous encounters with God. You see, at least in my case I have found that the schizophrenia means that I have a damaged sense of reality. The problem is, the christian walk is one of faith, not of seeing, but having schizophrenia means that you want to see so badly that you neglect faith and always tumble into delusions.
Some say a walk by faith is harder than a walk by reason, but many christians give testimony to life with faith being actually easier than always having to employ reasoning.
I have always identified myself more with people who have great intelligence than with others. And certainly, intelligence is nothing bad. But just like simplicity poses challenges, being intelligent means that you have special challenges in life. I myself am fairly intelligent, got an IQ of 140, but I made much more mistakes in life than my mother who is not as intelligent.
One challenge of being intelligent is that you overestimate yourself, that you think yourself as great because of your intelligence and do not develop the essential virtues which you need like everyone else to lead a good and honorable life.
Schizophrenia means, as I said, a skewed sense for reality. Sometimes you feel like being a great prophet, and then you feel like a devil. Sometimes you feel like you are the most adorable man on Earth, then you feel like the worst criminal.
What I have understood since a while is that I absolutely need the bible for a successful christian walk. I don't need many spiritual encounters, I don't need to see visions. The bible contains the lessons I need to hear for living life with God. The bible is the voice by which God normally speaks - to hear Him speak to you personally really is an exception. Yes, there are obviously christians who are prophets that hear God speak daily. But this isn't the case with all of us.
Another of my flaws as a schizophrenic is that I want to make rash generalizations. This is what made me an atheist many years ago. Instead of patiently studying the subject, I simply decided there must be no God because I felt no need for Him, and without recognizing why I would not want to believe I instead manufactured elaborate reasons why I would not want God in my life. I still labor on sometimes not wanting God when I feel well - but I'm seeing the problem with that now. For in fact God is a joy that I need to let in always. God is not our instant rescue - He is our Father with whom we must have daily communion. And since my baptism I am feeling a need for that.
Church is very important. It's not good to want to be a lone ranger. Yes it looks cool in the cinema, but in reality living such a life is low and painful. In fact I need people who love me and who carry the load with me, and whose load I can also carry with them. The church is the family into which God has entrusted me, and which God entrusts in my heart as well. And what an awesome family it is! It is Christ's empathy, it is where we meet both our christian brothers and sisters, and even God Himself.
Yes, God loves the individual too, but it is the church which God puts the greatest emphasis on. The whole family shall be saved, not just me and you.
These were just some of my thoughts. I hope I can be a good member on this forum, it's the only christian forum on schizophrenia which I have found so far.
Thank you and God bless!
Daniel
I am a new member and I have schizophrenia too.
I am a baptized christian since last Easter. I found that some things got easier since my baptism. I can't quite name it, I don't know what exactly has changed, but I have a better sense of being right with God, and that in baptism He has done something about me. I feel more optimistic spiritually, I feel like I can rely on God now, in the knowledge that He has indeed saved me and will always save me, if I just remain faithful to Him.
Recently I have found that I should not always expect miraculous encounters with God. You see, at least in my case I have found that the schizophrenia means that I have a damaged sense of reality. The problem is, the christian walk is one of faith, not of seeing, but having schizophrenia means that you want to see so badly that you neglect faith and always tumble into delusions.
Some say a walk by faith is harder than a walk by reason, but many christians give testimony to life with faith being actually easier than always having to employ reasoning.
I have always identified myself more with people who have great intelligence than with others. And certainly, intelligence is nothing bad. But just like simplicity poses challenges, being intelligent means that you have special challenges in life. I myself am fairly intelligent, got an IQ of 140, but I made much more mistakes in life than my mother who is not as intelligent.
One challenge of being intelligent is that you overestimate yourself, that you think yourself as great because of your intelligence and do not develop the essential virtues which you need like everyone else to lead a good and honorable life.
Schizophrenia means, as I said, a skewed sense for reality. Sometimes you feel like being a great prophet, and then you feel like a devil. Sometimes you feel like you are the most adorable man on Earth, then you feel like the worst criminal.
What I have understood since a while is that I absolutely need the bible for a successful christian walk. I don't need many spiritual encounters, I don't need to see visions. The bible contains the lessons I need to hear for living life with God. The bible is the voice by which God normally speaks - to hear Him speak to you personally really is an exception. Yes, there are obviously christians who are prophets that hear God speak daily. But this isn't the case with all of us.
Another of my flaws as a schizophrenic is that I want to make rash generalizations. This is what made me an atheist many years ago. Instead of patiently studying the subject, I simply decided there must be no God because I felt no need for Him, and without recognizing why I would not want to believe I instead manufactured elaborate reasons why I would not want God in my life. I still labor on sometimes not wanting God when I feel well - but I'm seeing the problem with that now. For in fact God is a joy that I need to let in always. God is not our instant rescue - He is our Father with whom we must have daily communion. And since my baptism I am feeling a need for that.
Church is very important. It's not good to want to be a lone ranger. Yes it looks cool in the cinema, but in reality living such a life is low and painful. In fact I need people who love me and who carry the load with me, and whose load I can also carry with them. The church is the family into which God has entrusted me, and which God entrusts in my heart as well. And what an awesome family it is! It is Christ's empathy, it is where we meet both our christian brothers and sisters, and even God Himself.
Yes, God loves the individual too, but it is the church which God puts the greatest emphasis on. The whole family shall be saved, not just me and you.
These were just some of my thoughts. I hope I can be a good member on this forum, it's the only christian forum on schizophrenia which I have found so far.
Thank you and God bless!
Daniel