This is for the girls out there who have been used and abused. I have no involvement--past, present or future--with the industry but I was engaged for nine years in self-inflicted bdsm. Last summer I stopped. Now I'm living with the physical consequences, i.e. scars, and negative emotional and psychological results; at first I just forgot about it and moved on but now it's beginning to be a daily challenge for me.
I'm married, something that I thought I'd never say. I did bdsm because I had such a low sense of self-esteem and believed lies some of my family told me that I was a nobody. So I thought I'd never meet someone who loved me and wanted to have me in spite of my scars and all that. "Sharing" my not-perfect self with another person is really becoming difficult and exposing blatant evidence of the stupid things I did is so degrading sometimes.
Anyways, I have a personal, specific question about some of this for you girls who have been there, done that. Could you please pm me so we could talk about this? I need someone to talk to who is feeling what I'm feeling.
~Sarah
I'm married, something that I thought I'd never say. I did bdsm because I had such a low sense of self-esteem and believed lies some of my family told me that I was a nobody. So I thought I'd never meet someone who loved me and wanted to have me in spite of my scars and all that. "Sharing" my not-perfect self with another person is really becoming difficult and exposing blatant evidence of the stupid things I did is so degrading sometimes.
Anyways, I have a personal, specific question about some of this for you girls who have been there, done that. Could you please pm me so we could talk about this? I need someone to talk to who is feeling what I'm feeling.
~Sarah
